Tehillim 27 Elul Meditation
BS”D
Aug 10 2021
Tehillim 27 Meditation
Contemplating Infinity
(On the 27th birthday of Gabriella & Michoel)
When we are focused on the body
We become a body;
When we are focused on the infinite
We become infinite.
I set my intention to seek and connect
to the infinite in this moment.
I breath and connect to my neshima (breath) / neshama (soul)
with this tefilla:
Ribono shel olam, Master of the Universe
You created me
You constantly give me life
I rely only on You
Ayn od milvado
I choose and believe the pain in my head
will heal …
I envision my self in my mother’s womb
Seeing my self as a speck
I imagine the YUD;
the first letter in Hashem’s name
as my beginning
I see my self as a cheilek of Hashem,
Becoming aware the Infinite within
my Elokus
my be-ing-ness
A true ness
from the moment of my birth and every moment since then
I was created by My Creators Ratzon (will)
And I am constantly being sustained by His Ratzon to exist
As an infinite neshama
I choose to connect to the Infinite
I journey back to the reshimu (impression) of my beginning
And true source
Borei Olam thank you for bringing me into existence
from non existence / ma-ayin
I begin to feel my self expand
And my massive headache dissolves
I embrace this transition
With calmness and simplicity
As I Melt into nothingness
I actively choose not to numb the pain
And resort to my natural behavior
I recognize that the pain was caused by being disconnected from my soul
I am choosing and believing
to connect to You
in this moment
because I am aware that
Hashem, you are here in the field right now
לְדָוִ֨ד ׀ יְהֹוָ֤ה ׀ אוֹרִ֣י וְ֭יִשְׁעִי מִמִּ֣י אִירָ֑א יְהֹוָ֥ה מָעוֹז־ חַ֝יַּ֗י מִמִּ֥י אֶפְחָֽד׃
Of Dovid. Hashem is my light and my help;
Whom should I fear?
Hashem is the stronghold of my life,
whom should I dread?
I choose to visit my inner sanctuary
Bilvavi Mishkan Evne
Haboreh Yisbarach, the Creator, blessed be He
Created me to do this
Be Divine
choose to strengthen my pnimius (inner) self
while in this bodily existence
To connect with my divine infinite
My Chelek Eloka M'mal Mamash
בִּקְרֹ֤ב עָלַ֨י ׀ מְרֵעִים֮ לֶאֱכֹ֢ל אֶת־בְּשָׂ֫רִ֥י צָרַ֣י וְאֹיְבַ֣י לִ֑י הֵ֖מָּה כָשְׁל֣וּ וְנָפָֽלוּ׃
When evil men assail me to devour my flesh—
it is they, my foes and my enemies, who stumble and fall.
Hashem, please, Keep us safe from dis-ease
And from evil rulers
Thank you for each life experience
And the traumas of childhood
Which were designed by you
To connect me to my soul’s mission
To fix my portion of this world
I know you are here with me in the field
I image being surrounded by
exquisite green lushness
As I cultivate my love for
HaMakom / Hashem, Atzmo / self, Chaveiro / the world
And everyone gathering in this great Circle is doing the same
Releasing all judgements
אִם־תַּחֲנֶ֬ה עָלַ֨י ׀ מַחֲנֶה֮ לֹא־יִירָ֢א לִ֫בִּ֥י אִם־תָּק֣וּם עָ֭לַי מִלְחָמָ֑ה בְּ֝זֹ֗את אֲנִ֣י בוֹטֵֽחַ׃
Should an army besiege me,
my heart would have no fear;
should war beset me,
still would I be confident.
Even though, because of life circumstances,
That I may feel distant.
I am believing in You and choosing to connect to the Shechina within
That infinite piece of You
We are TOGETHER AGAIN
Like in that womb-like existence
I feel Your loving embrace
Thank you Haboreh Yisbarach
for coming down to meet me
Meeting me where I am
I no longer have to run so high and so hard at this time
You are here. Close.
I just have to open my mind and heart to let you in
and I return
Teshuva
אַחַ֤ת ׀ שָׁאַ֣לְתִּי מֵֽאֵת־יְהֹוָה֮ אוֹתָ֢הּ אֲבַ֫קֵּ֥שׁ שִׁבְתִּ֣י בְּבֵית־יְ֭הֹוָה כׇּל־יְמֵ֣י חַיַּ֑י לַחֲז֥וֹת בְּנֹעַם־יְ֝הֹוָ֗ה וּלְבַקֵּ֥ר בְּהֵֽיכָלֽוֹ׃
One thing I ask of Hashem, only that do I seek:
to live in the house of Hashem all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of Hashem, to frequent His temple.
May we be focused this Elul on
Ahavas Yisrael
May our hearts connect / hiskashrus vhiskallelus
Allowing healing light and love
To enter the world
Bless Am Yisrael with wellsprings of goodness
Borei Olam, give me the bracha of
Menuchas hanefesh / a peaceful countenance and
The ability to embrace overwhelm
with emunah
elevate the overwhelm
transform overwhelm
from a swirling myriad of component parts
To One
I choose to not hide from it
in a deep sleep
But to embrace it
To become One with it
To create a resting place for the Shechina
One step at a time
One bead at a time
Imagine
the beads on a necklace…
One after another
A set of circumstances and events in my life
surrounding in a circular lush field
Starting with a foundational knot
and building it higher…
One bead supported by another
In a straight line
One more being added to the stretchy string
As it bounces upon the head of the one below it
Not crushing the ones beneath it
Or becoming too heavy and burdensome
But awakening and activating each individual bead’s potential
electrifying chaveiro (its neighbor)ee with light and vibration
After all the beads are in place,
I hold the top of the strand in one hand and the bottom in the other hand
And I consciously elevate the foundational knot, malchus
To meet Keter
Taking a moment to bring this Circle consciousness
To Daas Elyon (higher awareness)
The embryo expands into the full circle
my soul matures
I sense the waves of rise and fall
Flowing in and out of consciousness
My pain is a memory
I smile and thank It
and the One who Created it
Allowing me the opportunity
to reflect on teshuva
Hashem, Baal HaRachamim
Help Am Yisrael to do this
Teshuva
Please bring Geula
-RW
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With Hakoros Hatov for the opportunity to learn Chovos Halavavos, Shaar HaYichud and meditate with Devorah Hadassa. And for learning with Shuli about the metaphor of beading at her Rosh Chodesh Elul Brochos gathering. This meditation is in the zechus of Ita’s Meditation for Elevation’s Teacher Training
And in the zechus of the refua shelaima of Maayan Bas Devorah Hadassah