Each of the first 15 days of Nisan
is a seed for the
future corresponding month.

I connect to the Ohr
great Light being revealed to me now
in Nisan

A Knowing that expands
until the 15th of Nissan, at Leil Seder
when we all will connect to the
full galui / revelation of the Ohr /Light

My kavana today
the __
(ie ניום החמישי . / the 5th day)
of Chodesh Nisan

is planting a seed
for the future month of
the Nasi / Tribe of ___(ie Shimon)

May this avoda
bring me to a higher frequency
and AmYisrael
closer to Geula
and Purity
Kedusha


May there shine upon me
all the holy netzutot / sparks
וְכָל הָאוֹרוֹת הַקְּדוֹשׁוֹת הַכְּלוּלוֹת בִּקְדוּשַׁת
נִיצוֹצִין קַדִּישִׁין

and all the holy lights
וְכָל הָאוֹרוֹת הַקְּדוֹשׁוֹת

which are contained in the holiness of this tribe,
הַכְּלוּלוֹת בִּקְדוּשַׁת זֶה הַשֵּׁבֶט

to understand and comprehend in Your Torah
לְהָבִין וּלְהַשְׂכִּיל בְּתוֹרָתֶךָ

and in the fear of You,
to do Your will all the days of my life
וּבְיִרְאָתֶךָ
לַעֲשׂוֹת רְצוֹנְךָ כָּל יְמֵי חַיַי

I and my children and my children’s children,
from now and forever.
אֲנִי וְזַרְעִי וְזֶרַע זַרְעִי מֵעַתָּה וְעַד עוֹלָם

אָמֵן: Amen.

MEDITATION

Today
I check in with my
head,
nervous system
and body

I Breath and
ask myself
“Which level am I now
in this very moment?

I choose to be in the NOW
nochachut / with presence

I feel into anything in excess within
my mind and body
what chametz is still leftover
of the kelipat noga
that needs purifying?

With each inhale
And exhale
I connect to a Tzadik

I connect to the holy Baal Shem Tov
closer and closer
with each breath
making room
for the Shechina to enter
to the place of ayin

i let go
a little bit more of Yeish (self- centered)
I take the journey down through each part my body
releasing any tension
pausing where it needs more attention
to release

checking in with each of my parts / middot
where it may be in the realm of klippot
kelipat noga
blocking me from cheirut
closeness to my nekuda pnimit

As I prepare my home
and body for Pesach.
I remember to breath

I begin to enter into the Shaar / Gate
of the day
Day ___ (say the day and tribe)

Preparing my vessel for Pesach
elevating higher
breathin in ה Hey / Matzah
breathing out ח Cheit / chametz,

purifying
rising above mochin d’katnus.
I imagine myself surrounded with a brilliant light
the surrounding light / Ohr Maki
with patience, Bina
I connect to Keter
the Ohr Ein Sof / Hashem’s infinite light.

I connect Hitkashrut
with others doing this inner work
and supporting me on this journey
with inner vision

I enter hitbodedut…
contemplating Hashem’s world
and all the nissim He has done for me till now

I run to Him
and melt into Elokut / G-dliness,
the world of ayin
Ain od milvado
Wherever I go
and whatever I see,
I connect to the Shechina
These days leading to Pesach
Hashem Echad
Shmo Echad
“Hashem is One and His Name is one.”

And Shov / Return
to my Pesach preparations
with the Ohr Chozer
the “returning light”,

In the returning
I become more integrated in the
physicality of the mitzvot

Breath
I enter the inner chambers of my heart
my nekuda pnimit
my Kodesh Kodashim, the Holy of Holies

Quieting
the spasms in my mind
Yishuv HaDaas
reveals
AYIN (bittul) אין
and אני “ANI Hashem”
as One.

This moment
I connect with Hashem
all my senses

I connect to the moment of true love
What do I see?
What are the sounds that I hear?
Whats smells?
What am I saying?

In this place of Love
Ahavat Hashem
loving Hashem
I attach to only Him
d’veykus.

Breath

now from this place of solitude
I choose a niggun
I will now sing my personal nigun

(sing)
as I sing my shira/ song
I envision
Hashems Name
Havayah. (the 4-letter name of Hashem)

In all my maasim / acts,
I choose to see Hashem
and hear Hashem,
And in every feeling
I attach myself with Him,

My higher vision of my self now
is rising to keter / crown
focusing on the
tip of the י
the “apex of the yud”
above my head
the ohr ain sof

transcending above my nature
connecting to the “feminine waters” mayim nukvin
rising
yearning to go back to their shoresh / source
I embrace my inner child

MEDITATION 2

I feel my body
and breath into it
Relaxing
with each breath
connecting to my neshama

with each breath
i open open open
my ability to see my shoresh / source
surrounding me
and the kav connecting
the Shechina within

I focus on the light coming in from my Rosh/ head

I feel my higher soul
in my brain
mochin dgadlus entering slowly
for my level today

my inner focus is now on the left side of my head
Bina
BINAH. includes all 10. SEFIROT. Including CHOCHMA.

I focus on relaxing my nervous system
which developed a wisdom of its own
in order to survive in this world.
that does not perceive. HASHEM.

refocusing into the hitchadshut
the newness of this moment
entering me
memale kol almin

reaching my neck area
light fills the dark constricted spaces
and its swirls around and surrounds it
i BREATH
INTO the narrow area of my throat
releasing and allowing
with breath
to open and expand

I reflect these words from the Torah
פרעה הקריב
Paroh brought close
Paroh brought Bnei Yisrael
closer to Teshuva
Paro פרעה and neck עוֹרֶף
have the same letters

and observe
with patience
this Teshuva process
breathing
the light passing through my neck
with ease

to my lower sefirot
breathing with the 6 sefirot of
chesed, gevurah, tiferet, netach, hod yesod

breath into my limbic system.
and bring my attention through my entire body
every cell and atom within me
down to YESOD

HASHEMS wisdom is concealed
and with each breath
I open this awareness more and more
asking Hashem for my limited wisdom to becomes more revealed.

I connect to my yesod / limbic system
feeling the sensations in my body
revealing the wisdom that is hidden.

malchut is now receiving the light
in the bottom of my body
with humility anivut
and Temimut / simplicity

my mind is quiet
any external thoughts
i pop like bubbles
With playfulness and love

I ask Hashem.
For this respite of quiet.
An Intentional quieting

Hashem, protect me from my triggers, stories, patterns, shame spasms…
And allow me to
To cross the YamSuf
not bypassing the darkness

The only way out
Is through

on the count of 3
I will re-enter the world.

holding the ani / ayin paradox
The kavod
is His
This realization allows me
To live simply
With the purpose.
With a higher wisdom.

as I am created perfectly imperfect
to do this work
In this intentionally silent space
I scream
a silent scream

a higher wisdom enters
This avoda / meditation / hitbodedut
provides a channel
For healing
my heart
your heart
this is the key
to geula 

-Rochel Leah Weiman

MEDITATION 3

find a comfortable place to sit
breath
Forgiveness for a goal that is important to her to achieve.
Think about a goal that is important to you to achieve,
or something for Pesach
what comes to you
and say, Borai HaOlam
Creator of the world, please guide me
Please may my will as His will
come out much stronger.
Beautiful. Now imagine yourself. Who are you?
What do you look like when you have already accomplished the goal? F

For example
You want to light the candles of Pesach Right?
You have a desire, a ratzon
to stand and feel the closeness of Hashem

What do you see around the house? Furniture, designs, and everything. How do you look, first of all, physically?
How are you wearing your head covering
or how are you combing your hair?
How is your body language?
Look at your facial expression in detail when you have already accomplished the goal

What does your face look like?
How do your hands and feet look?
If you are standing, sitting, running, dancing?
Who is standing around you? Are there people?

What do you hear? Who is around you

eople's talk, your talk,
maybe you're singing,
maybe you're hearing music,
maybe there's music coming from the other room,
maybe there's people chatting,
someone's talking to you, that's something pleasant, or you're saying to yourself,
"Wow, how beautiful I am"
maybe you hear yourself saying a tehillim, w
hat are the voices you hear,

what are the smells you smell? Maybe it's the smell of a good perfume, maybe it's the smell of cleaning, maybe it's the smell of a food you like, or are they foods that are cooking in the background, maybe it's the smell of a baby in your hands, maybe it's the smell of your husband who is close to you.

You see, what do you hear, what do you smell, and what is the feeling in your body? Where in your body does it meet? When you're already there, where in your body do you feel the feeling, "Here I am there?" Is it in your throat? Is it in your shoulders? Is it in your heart? Is it in your stomach? In your legs? Where when you're already there, in your imagination, where does it meet? |

Where do you feel, what movement is known in your body?

Beautiful, now you put the picture in, make it more colorful, just like Sharpen the colors, put a light there like you take a picture that you open on your phone, you say, "This is not enough, this is not enough." You need to sharpen it a little bit, like this, like you're building some kind of beautiful picture. Now enlarge it. Double the size. You can even make it three-dimensional, like it's alive and moving, until you get the most attractive, most real, most desirable feeling. Now imagine that this picture is right in front of you. What are you already there? Imagine what significant people say about you when you're in this situation. It's not that they see you, but they know that you're already there. People who are significant to you might be a rav or mashpia, or your mother or your father, your husband or daughter. What do they say about you when they say, "Wow, look how she's reached her goal." What do people say about your success? What compliments do you receive? What certificates do you receive from those around you when you're already there? What does the world give you back when you're already there?

You're already there, my dear sister. Your soul is already there. It has no limits. It's not an illusion,
It's the truth. In truth, how much goodness you have hidden is already very close to you. This is just to remove the screens of Amalek's skepticism of previous attempts in which you failed. Did you expect geula? This is a question that will be asked of you in the next world. Did you expect it? Did you watch it with your eyes? Did you watch the future? Did you go visit Safed for a while? When will you come to Safed?

Okay, and now take a deep breath through your nose as if you were ascending. ascending up to the blessed place, the highest you can reach in the crown. To the place where light begins to shine. Feel how your body rises

Breath in

And you smile, widening as if the Creator of the world is loading you with the picture and saying, come on, I'm with it too. You exhale.
smile.

Look at yourself in the picture. You're in the picture. you're smiling right now. At this moment, you get up from your chair and unite with that in the picture. You're one. You're not in the chair. You look at her. Get up now. How you look. And unite with her. You're one and together. Inhale and exhale. And fill this entire square of the picture with life. It's possible. It's possible. You load the picture with life-giving light. As if ascending to Hashem from the picture and wanting even better, even better, to smile, even more even better.

With every breath, a more colorful, three-dimensional picture vibrates with excitement. And your physical feeling grows stronger for the better. With a beautiful smile, now that the picture is already exciting, imagine that it begins to move towards the future until the point in time when it is fulfilled. Let's say you want it on the night of the Seder. So look at this picture. Now you are safe, traveling with you, how does he tell them where you put the blood on the mezuzahs, move, don't get stuck, Jew, you move in this world, you went, you are not stuck, put the blood on the mezuzahs and the doorpost, look ahead and move, come on, start traveling, start traveling the wave to the Seder night, to the lighting of candles with the picture, start traveling to the Shabbat HaGadol, and put yourself there, travel,

forward, each one to this moment, put it at a point in time,
where do you want this picture to really be? There, the land is already there, worship Hashem with simcha, ivdu et hashem bsimch bo lifanav,
starting to move from below, and Hashem joins from above,

thank you,Hashem, thank you,
every day, you must see yourself as if In your imagination, you left Egypt, you already left,

a beautiful smile, as a woman when you are already there, look at all the stories that you are now in your misery, in your fears, and see how everything is going, as it says here, a reassessment. All the events are adjusting themselves to complete the goal, starting now.

All kinds of things are happening in your relationships

Now, all of this is adjusting itself to the goal. It is already synchronized in anticipation of it happening. Look at it. Look at how the future pours into the present, nourishing the present. I am already your queen.

I have divine power within me. I am a creator
I activate the creator in me.
the chelek eloka mimal, the part of Hashem from above inside of me.

I can act through my thoughts. my dimyon / imagination
Because when the thought is entirely possessed and connected / in dveikus with Hashem it will be true, t

i want this year to be calm on Pesach. I will create a picture. I yearned and expected geula. I watched it with my eyes.

I am creating a higher living being,
with hashgacha pratis
I am able to do it because the Hashem is breathing it into me

In my soul He is choosing to be here. I am created in His image.
Because I am in His image

Hakol bseder
thank you, Hashem, for opening my eyes, opening and trusting me