THIS NIGHT
ROCHEL LEAH WEIMAN

This night
We went to sleep
with solemn imprints
of Eicha in our hearts
We in Tzfat were awakened
at midnight precisely
Rumbling
Shook our
beds tonight lowered
in mourning
I thought: Its happening!
And waited
with a silent kol / voice
watching my loved one sleeping
peacefully not knowing
No siren.
A midnight Awakening
Rachel Imeinu crying for her children.
War & Moshiach
Entwined

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COME HOME
by
Batya Ruddell.

This night
How long will it be?
Endless as all nights
Since October 7th
Crying
In the dark
Praying
Mourning.
Shrouded in sadness.
Hashem,  please come home.

This night
Of aveillut
For what was
And the lack of it
An emptiness
We cannot truly feel.
Or maybe that's
What the hole is
Inside of us
The deep crater
That people try
To fill
With food
Facebook
And fun.
Hashem,  we need You
To come home.

This night
I'm trying to connect
To an intangible something
That springs to life
When walking the cobbled stones
Of King Herod and Dovid HaMelech
Tracing my fingers
Across massive boulders
That once built
The Beit HaMikdash.
This year
I am not
Inhaling the history
Of the Kotel tunnels
Or giving my heart
At the
Kodesh HaKodeshim.
It is missing to me
A tiny taste of G.d's loss.
Hashem,  don't You want to come home?

This night
I read Eichah
And feel the fear
Of the Almighty's royal wrath
That with His breath
Left our Temple
Burned and bleeding.
What of your anger now?
Have we crossed the line
Again?
Is there no way back?
Could You
Would You
See us
For who we are
And not what we do.
Hashem,  lead us safely to Your home.

This night
We wait for war
And Moshiach
The two
Entwined together
In our destiny.
Rumors rumble
Of impending attacks
It seems our enemies
Are at the gate
But we are already here
At the entrance to Your palace.
Hashem, we want to come home! 

There is a non-fatigable eternal spirit that we carry for all generations, along with the Divine message of the value of life. – Nechama Sarah Burgeman

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Meditation: Last moments of Tisha BAv 5784.
Becoming a Woman of Bitachon
לאישה של ביטחון
Rochel Leah Weiman

An earthquake at midnight
On Tisha BAv in Tzfat
shook the Land.

there was a
physical and spiritual
seismic Shift
Last night
before sleep

we were under the threat of an attack by
Iran and Hezbollah,

I intuitively reach for my techeilet blue
security blanket
And enwrap myself in its chesed
(lovingly knitted by my dear friend, Yehudit)

I draw the threads of chesed over me
”I submit” / hachnaa
to the night

I separate any fear, doubt
Or distracting thoughts
from dveikus

Buiding
Daat
and
Malchut DeKedusha

A Sweetening happened
In the darkness of night
The remaining netzutzot elevate
Ekeyeh / Teshuva is now

Glimmers of Moshiach
brilliantly shining
Dveikut

During the trembling
Is the tikkun
of our mothers
Rachel and Leah

The rumbling
Is re-setting and
Re-Building Malkchut
Individually and collectively

The final klippot are breaking loose
Now
a tikkun of the original Cosmic Rupture

According to Rabbi Nachman (Likutei Moharan 3:4)
The raven עורב swallows the nachash
And the thread of chesed חות של חסד( Avraham)   
is ascending

Last night
Under the threat of an attack by
Iran and Hezbollah,
I reach for my techeilet blue
security blanket
And enwrap myself in its chesed
(lovingly knitted by my dear friend, Yehudit)

I draw the threads of chesed over me
I submit  / hachnaa
to the night

I separate any fear, doubt
Or distracting thoughts
from dveikus

Buiding
Daat
and
Malchut DeKedusha

A Sweetening
In the darkness of night
The remaining netzutzot elevate

Ekeyeh
Teshuva is now
Glimmers of Moshiach
brilliantly shining

Dveikut
During the trembling
Is the tikkun
of the Yichud of
Rachel and Leah

The rumbling
Is re-setting and
Re-Building Malkchut
Individually and collectively

Rabbi Samson says
this Not Knowing
when / if / how / where
we are going to be attacked
is a relevant punishment
sinat chinam
Not just a metaphysical algorithm

This constriction
the hidden deep darkness in our heart
is our opportunity
for the tikkun of
sinat chinam

Our Achdut
Ish echad  / one people
preceding lev echad  / one heart
allows us to be TRULY liberal
To accept all opinions
It doesn’t matter
Because we are brothers and sisters
Our relationship is much deeper
than our differences

The waiting period brings us to the
Ish echad resonance
Once we achieve the oneness
of ish echad (achdut)
then the lev echad (our differences)
is no longer threatening

So let us use our kolot / voices
With love / ahava
And wisdom /chochma
In our homes / work / school / freindships…
As a wife / mother / daughter / friend / co-worker
With Daas
We came to this world
our soul /in this body /in this time f/or this tikkun

Hashem is revealing His malchut
By the degree that we are Rectifying our personal aspect of malchut

I will use every spiritual tool that Hashem has given me
To reveal Malchut deKedusha
In the world

As Rabbi Nachman teaches
This is the yichud connection of
of our Voice z'er anpin / masculine
And
Speech / Malchut / feminine

we can actively create the 
תדר של אהבה
A higher frequency of love
In whatever place you are right now

So breath
And say
I love you
I love you
I love you
A LOT!!!

Ani ohevet otach  meod!!
אני אהבת ותך מאוד

And it then ripples
Out to the world

Breath