2/11/2021
Remember
all the Megillah was written with Ruach ha kodesh
It’s a description of what’s going on now
It needs to revive us of any lowliness among us
The one who knows how to ask
And one who doesn’t know how to ask
Is it possible to say to gather all the Yehudim?
How are you going to enter in one system
Everyone
All the different factions party and divisions.
How is it that we are going to return
All the scattered bones
Of the wide galut -both gashmiut and ruchniut
Physical and spiritual exile
Yechezkels dream
The exile / The galut was a reflection of these scattered dried bones
Lifeless, scattered
Galus is going further away from our life force
When the body decomposes
it scatters
How can we bring the bones together?
RUACH is the world of emotions
This ruach came in
The lifeless people
How is it going to become one?
A revelation of the whole
in which every part is illuminated with the light of what it truly IS
And you see the whole picture
How can all these different parts of Klal yisrael come together
Now with covid, vaccine… people are tearing each other apart.
Its might… its revival and shivat shivato. The returning of its return
You might say
Don’t you already see
The frightening way
Jews are against other Jews
Brothers are turning over in their mind
One against the other
Like wolves and snakes
How can you say Go gather all the Jews
However we know
Whoever says that Haman made a lie when he said
There’s a nation that is scattered within themselves
No it’s a truth
It’s true that the one nation
The nation of oneness is scattered, and splintered
But he still said “one nation”
How can we have this paradox
Am echad / Umefuzar and on the other hand
Don’t be surprised by this reality
There are wonderous things in this world
This nation especially
Of Am yisrael
Its entire existence in this world is upholstered in wonders
You can’t wrap your head around
This wonder / peleh hazeh
This is a demonstration of this unfathomable wonder
It IS one nation
Despite the fact it is separated and distant and scattered.
The fact you are describing the scattered-ness but its ONE-ness
It’s powerful to think about
like a family fighting. There’s nothing you can change.
The nature of klal yisrael is a reality
Whether they know it or not
It’s one nation - whether its scattered or not
It is ONE PLACE
AND where do we go from there?
Why isn’t galut the ideal?
When we spread light to darkness
Jerusalem
Zion is either a fine post or a point
Yerushalayim is the center of the universe
In our ideal state
The Knesset Yisrael the essential Jewish soul
Is the manifestation of the shechina
When we are all brought back together and revealed
It reveals the light
But when we become fragmented in eretz yisrael
We are aiming for the consciousness so powerful
That is illuminated by the center point
The eternity of Yisrael
Will never die
(Shmuel) Told Shaul he lost his kingship
The internal dimension of Yisrael doesn’t lie in its nevuot
The exile with all of its awful manifestations has to come to an end
At a time when that ruach from Yechezkels vision
That comes from 4 corners
Is being revived from the turmoil and pain that surrounds us from one side
And on the other hand
The revelation of the inner soul
To return and be built from our life source
Aliya
To run away
Or desire to return to our true source
We are close to recognize there is a deep healing and medicine
Of this illness of separation
Sof kol sof
At the end of the day
We are one people and we will be one people
Yisrael will arise
With the eternal saying
GO AND GATHER ALL THE JEWS
A beautiful image coming together
But again the question is so big
(as we see everyone coming to eretz yisrael)
But we see the in-fighting
And this question
Of what’s going on
Derech hageula
Standing in the path of geula
Like an iron wall and stumbling block
You see this disparateness
And fighting
And not being able to see the other as part of the Am
Is devouring us
Ki shaim harefuah
The ability to self-healing of the individual
Already uses it in actuality to reveal the well springs of healing
That are present
To heal the person within himself
Within an individual
There is a potential to heal from within
There’s a wellspring of resources of health within a person
That you use in order to reveal
The maayonot of might that is already in the person
From one level of soul to the next
There’s a part of us not in the illness
Not affected
The part of us that is healthy
That give the resource to the part that is not healthy to heal
It’s from the UNKNOWN PLACE WITHIN
BILTI YADUA
It’s not known
Its unconscious
The unhealthy part
You have no access to it
It’s unknown
It’s known that the illnesses of the soul
Machalot nafshiot
Any inner illness and its external manifestation are nested in the side of the person that is the most exposed
The worst parts of ourselves we are not proud of
We only know our triggers
Sometimes our inner pain illnesses
Are the side we know best of ourselves
When you meet someone, you might meet that part first
The worst quality
Aval hatzan the side that is unknown
The beautiful unknown side
Is constantly filled with courage
Maale chaim koach
Filled with life and strength
From this inner storehouse of health
Hidden within him
Within us
To taste it
To influence the side that doesn’t yet know the inner health
Is able to impact
To mistakenly think
That we are ill or broken or unhealthy
We convince ourselves who we are
The whole side can impact the unhealthy side
It’s a mistake to think you are ill
In that moment you are a person filled with life and power
When we fall into thinking
Oh I messed up
Yeh we have those sides but this is not our essence
Find that part with light
And that will heal the other side
When we find this in klal Yisrael
Yisrael: beyond the consciousness
Mi kamcha yisrael one nation in the land
At this time it’s necessary for us to admit our mistake
To describe for us
Our mistake to describe what Judaism is
Based on its external experience
On its public face
That is actually the worst part
When you first meet a person
It’s the external
We are so busy seeing the fighting
What they are externally doing
But instead, what’s inside
This is where all of our fears
What our external face looks like
If am yisrael is the deep inner point of all reality
Why does it look like this
We are judging the state of the Jewish people
Based on its separations
Amalek attacks the weak parts
That the clouds of glory had rejected
Those that are attacking our nations
Grasp the weak ones
Because that’s the external and known part
Nefesh klalit bilty yodua
Seeing the weak ones
We sense that actually there’s an inner soul
THAT’S UNKNOWN
There’s a national
Unmundane
That we’ve distracted our minds from
Filled with might
And has the strength
To get up on our feet
Like the days of eternity
And stand against all the different forms of amalek
That are so desiring
That are so quick to say
LOOK AT THIS WEAK PART
To see am yisrael in eretz yisrael
Is this what it looks like?
But there’s also the place can we move in to the unknown soul within
Stop judging from the externals
ie. Grandmother died
Connection
Her personality became so irrelevant
Because I was connecting to her essence
What if we can do it with Am Yisrael
To see the UNKNOWN SOUL WITHIN IT
THIS HIDDEN YAHADUT
That is not even known to itself
This is the big soul to the big nation
That carries within it
The suffering of the world
It makes itself known
That from that place from the unknown
Within the soul of the nation
Comes the wellspring
GO GATHER ALL THE JEWS
We need to delve deep
In these days before Purim
Go deep within your self
That is hidden
Ashreinu that lies the deepest joy and the richness of our life
Of the NATION OF ONENESS
When we access this unknown soul
The inner spiritual quality
And in this all the redeemers, the lovers, and also those who are trying to destroy
The haters
From the middle of what’s going on
That sits above our imaginations
Ohr yeshuah
He will smile
And set up for us the eternal light of geula
And from the inner state of this state
Of NOT KNOWING
Happening on the external
Will come this divine recognition
To find THE UNKNOWN JEWISH SOUL WITHIN US
And one brother to another will know each other
And a voice will be heard
Let’s elevate
To the inner point of yerushalayim
Back in the days of Mordechai and Esther
There’s one nation united solidified
In its might
To rebuild all the ruins
Internal resource
Hidden from the eye
When we find the hiddenness
When the bracha will come about
The bracha is hidden
Ad she lo yada
We have to get to the place of the
Unknown THAT IS WITHIN
THAT WE ACCESS
LCHAIM LTOVIM ULESHALOM
LKOL YISRAEL
DISCOVER THE UNKNOWN
To say I don’t know
I don’t know what the soul looks like
Tefilla
Am yisrael
Every Jew has an internal and an external
Inside of our soul
The entire body of Knesset yisrael
It’s always within
Whatever we are doing in the world
I daven that
All of the world are able to finally discover the inner soul
That holds the light
That is so unknown
To say
I don’t know another Jew
Because
I don’t know myself
Gather in
Whatever that means in your soul
To enter the unknown
We are faced with that all the time
Within our self and am yisrael
Filled with power
There’s a lot of external tiredness
Discover the unknown
This unknown place
The ruach that brings the dry bones
To a live people
Beiteinu…
Discover this in its deepest essence
May we be zoche to see it
Take that place and not just know it exists
Use it to heal
Focus on the echo of the neshama
Tap into the inner reason of unknown joy
He wasn’t an optimist; he just saw the truth lying so deeply within.
2/18
There’s a certain image of simcha
That feels like it takes a lot of effort
To push myself into a state of joy
Uncovering the simcha that’s in us already
There’s a deep pleasure that we are experiencing all the time
We are blocking it
We just need a reminder that it exists
We can forget just how exalted we are
Open up
Ldodi dofek…
The experiences of learning rav kook
The root simcha
Just like the sense of Gdly reality
Is based on constant movement
Of what is alive in me
In the same way
The existence of Havaya
Beingness of ideas
A simcha kdeeri; A simcha that never stops
An internal space that we enter
The access point
Within us
That never stops
This eternal pleasure
The whole world is in a state of joy
The hiddenness
The hiding place in our world
There’s a simcha within it
Simcha is the innermost being of everything
The place beyond all the descriptions and judgements that lie in the world
The place where I can tap into the Gdliness
Hashem is here
EFES ZULATO
There’s nothing that is not Hashem
Nothing outside of Hashem.
See the inner HAVAYA
I tap into the deepest level of joy
As we live in this world and we engage in everything
We lose touch of the infinite presence
The inner joy
There are things that get in the way of our simcha
With any flow
Like creating a dam that will stop it
Never-ending joy
There are blocks
The inner spirit of life that’s within in
Falls from the level oial simcha
That inner motion of life
Is enclothed in the external
Which blocks the inner Gdliness
From the lifeless physical mundane life
We don’t experience the life source
So what do we do
We fill in the need for that internal flow
Movement of simcha
With the DESIRE TO BE HAPPY
AND THE EMPTINESS THAT COMES WITH IT
And each person has that image
Of I want to be happy
Knowing
There’s a deeper presence that I want to connect to and I don’t have access to
More and more as we try to fill the desire the deepest level of joy
The more we fill it with the HOPE FOR HAPPINESS
We feel more and more we are unable to access it
We feel the nothingness in the hope
A lot of people lose hope of living a joyful conscious life
I’ve hoped for it so much and never got it
The desire for happiness is really
Its WITHIN ME
AND I DON’T HAVE ACCESS TO IT
The hope for the joy that is out there
Feels so far away
You realize that’s not the point and instead
A certain recognition that could have stopped
The simcha of presence
SIMCHAT AMON OLAMIM.
No longer do you need to carve out the images
That happiness looks like
Move from desiring happiness
There’s nothing in the world that can stop you from experiencing the innermost joy
The place that we get to
That there’s nothing that can stop my soul from experiencing that inner life force
So refreshing and reviving
It’s not something I have to achieve
Its inside every moment
The inner lifeforce
The inner picture
This inner soft gentle knowing that everything is here right now
This oneg that our soul is in when we access the inside
AD D'LO YADAH
THIS UNKNOWING
In our mind we know all the external
Havaya ___ its not in my mind it’s in my heart
Dovid Hamelech; was always in a state of simcha?
Experiencing the life force
Bnei Machshava tova
The reason we can’t control our thoughts is because we are not feeling alive
1. Vitality
2. Broken heart
When your neshama is alive in that experience
When KAVAYA HAPNIMIT KULAM
Inner Gdly being of all reality
No pain could take David Hamelech from the pnimiut of what he was feeling
Not happy clappy
The inner aliveness of his soul being awake and alive
Tapped into the infinity of Hashem
Mlo kol Haaretz kvodo
Or
Where are you hashem?
In the question lies the answer
The inner aliveness of the soul
Tapped into the HAVAYA HAPNIMIT within it
Rabbi Nachman
Put an instrument on an animal and it would sing its internal shira
The ART OF SIMCHA
VNAhafach hu
Ksherbeinu bayin
Asi lmikdash and I am going to live in you
That’s simcha
I’m in pain, a Purim story
We are not in geula
The second bais hamikdash is not the end
We celebrate within all the fear and craziness
There’s an inner song
The song of simcha
The ability to tap into the simcha
Ad she lo yada
RW: I became a bt and my mother said but you are not happy anymore
My happiness was really up and down
Not equilibrium
PLEASURE VS JOY
The biggest sense of pleasure
Oneg is the highest level of keter
When you experience something Gdly
That experience of oneg
A STATE OF PLEASURE OF EXPERIENCING GDLINESS
INNER DVEIKUS
Grasped in the enclaves of the heart
No thought can grasp hashem
So chashuv to the simcha of Yiddishkeit and Purim
No THOUGHT CAN GRASP HASHEM
So much of the process of accessing the ONEG HAELYON
Finding it not in our mind, but in our heart
And all the Torahs of the mind
Of how to think about hashem
How to access dveikus
All the inner work
All the avoda is to open up pathways inside of us
To this clear high pleasure
Infinite elevation
The highest pleasure
This idea of the pleasure so beyond is really connected
Filled with pleasure and the light of love
The experience of dveikus with hashem
Likutei halachot
Esther the hidden inside pleasure
First she is hiding
The inner point of oneg
We are not in touch with it
The inner life force is hidden
Within it
What enables Esther
Mordecai
What did Mordechai give Esther
The love within daat
INTIMATE KNOWING OF HASHEM
WHEN WE ARE STUCK in the daily grind
Of lifeless reality
This light of love of feeling in my heart
Where I am one with hashem
Not an emotion of love
A daas of love
To tap into the simcha
Matzav hameushar
Our nefesh
The pleasure of hashem
The delight of love
This longing appears inside of your neshama in a state of rest and constancy
Come back to the AHAVA SHE BDAAT
TO feel the hesder
Hidden within our heart
The simcha
Tapped into the soft place in us
When we tap into the softness
And expand that
And are able to enter the presence
And does end up in the dancing joy
But not connected to the inside
If it starts from the inner experience of hashem
Then that’s
ONEG
A SENSE OF DIVINE INFINITE EXPERIENCE OF HASHEMS LIGHT
Oneg and simcha:
2 different aspects
Anava vhayira…
Humility a state of beyond me
Yira awe
When they are revealed what they birth is oneg v simcha
This subtle gentle oneg comes from anava
Getting my ego out of the way
This oneg
Access oneg through anava
Pure joy
Yesod hayira
Comes from yira
Comes from the word to see
When you really see something
You see it all the way to pnimiut
What is fear
I see something so deeply
That I am tapped into the awe
Inner dimension and what’s beyond
This is the foundation of simcha
Looking at life from its INSIDE
MA
WHAT IS THIS
AND REALLY SEE IT
BRINGING YIRA + ANAVA TOGETHER
Oneg is defined as the experience of hashem
Even though we can’t describe hashems atzmus
Deveikus
Simcha is the reality with everything
HAVAYA HAKLALIT
The inner reality that hashem is within everything
A prior stage an inner reality
Of the Elokus within everything
Maybe oneg is keter
And simcha is physicality/ malchut?
Interplay of yira and simcha
Why is it fear?
It’s formed in the depths of our neshama that comes from these seemingly opposite realities
Of grasping hashem
1. Constant lack of absolute knowing of what hashem is. Constant inability to grasp hashem together with a total certainty in the reality of hashem. I know 100% of what hashem is, but there’s never a definable thing of what this means
When you put these together I don’t know what hashem is and I KNOW
MAYEMET MAOD A FRIGHTENING REALITY
haKeil haGadol
ma NORAH HAMAKOM HAZEH
HOW aweinspiring is this place
He is simple
Yoshev ohalim
Avraham chased
Yitzchak gevorah
The two come together in Tiferet.
1. Avraham: this is the experience of hashem
2. Yitzchak: preserving and creating boundaries; disciplined; no knowing
When the 2 come together
A STATE OF I DON’T KNOW AND I KNOW
Yira other than Hashem is fear
The negation of what you know
The not knowing is totally necessary
When I have a concept of what hashem is
I can be far from the concept
My knowing of hashem
Blurs out the inner knowing
The direct experience
And turns into I KNOW
Whatever I know something about
I know this is a bird
Takes away of the experience of the bird
It clarifies it out
This is what it is
This is the blurring of the science of humanity and how we think
This the rule for everything in limited creating
I’m going to define something
It takes away the woa!
The essence of life is understanding and experiencing the BEING OF EVERYTHING AS GODLY
A BABY!!
The yedia of what’s hidden
When you have a moment of deveikus
The spiritual aspect
I had this powerful experience in tefilla
But no words
YEDIYA HANEELEMET
No thought can grasp hashem
Only my heart
The experience of life in any moment
Its Gdly
One in the chambers of the heart
Its hidden
It’s impossible to know in my mind what it is
A knowing of it
An experience of it
Impossible to take the lifeforce out of it
To reduce it to worlds
You can’t blur it to limit it through knowing
If you can define it you would lose
Impossible to grasp the Havaya Elokit
Its drawing to the life and presence of hashem
No understanding comes between the source of the life force
And the existence of the existence
No screen
Nothing can get in its way
WHAT WE DON’T KNOW
WE EXPERIENCE!
THIS EXPERIENCE OF ad she lo yada
What can never be known
In my mind this world looks like chaos
Jewish people may be fighting
Inside is the UNKNOWABLE
ITS NORAH
AND AWE
Likutei halachas
Rabbi Natan
Yirat hashem that brings you to life and not to death
People who learn sifrei musar and fall into a low place
Of lack of motivation; nofel zulato
I can never achieve those levels
Yirat hashem that takes me to a place of mavet
Purim
Yirat hashem lchaim
The deepest joy
One needs to be cautions
To receive yira of life and not death
Hopelessness
Is disconnected yira
That you need to run from it
We need to receive yirat hashem for life
That you are coming closer through the mussar
And not feel litrachek further
The yira of yomim noraim
The 40 days of elul to the end of Yom Kippur
Compares it to the 40 days receiving of the torah
Before we get to Pesach
Leaving Mitzrayim
We have to tap into yira of Purim
It is drawn to us
Nifla meod
Exceedingly wonderous
Beyond
Until the yira is so hidden
And can only recognize it and the only thing you see on the outside
Is the enormous joy that is accessed when you are tapped into the pnimius
The essence of the fixing of yira.
So that you don’t come because of your yira
So you don’t fall
But yira of REALLY SEEING THE PNIMIUS
In a way unknown to our mind
Through this yira we can strengthen
So trusting in his chesed
Everything no matter what I’m seeing will be fixed to the ultimate purpose
What’s the mida of Purim
yom kPURIM
KP: YOU experience the yira
Purim: cannot explain the depth; the enormous joy; through the lens of experiencing the awe of hashem
Tap into that level of yira that’s so unknown
It no longer matters
WHAT MEGILLA IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW
Because we can find the Megillas Esther
This deep trust
The AHAVA SHE BDAAT
THIS loving consciousness
There’s a trust that comes in it
We can see the ahavat bilti
The non-shifting joy
Rather than chasing something outside of us
--
Chag ha herus
Hashat harei
Next year we are going to be free
In our bodies we may be slaves
But our soul is not
We learned this year
Is to not know
The world is constantly shifting
That place
Bilti moseket that never stops
Ad d'do
This year of AD SHE LO YADA
It used to be all beginnings began as Pesach…
We know achshav. Beginnings are Purim
The ABILITY TO TAP INTO
SIMCHA BILTI MOSEKET
I know hashem so certainly, but I can’t know him
Simcha that is an awesome wonder
The experience of ahava she bdaat
Allows the Esther to come out
The sense of oneg
Hashem is not only with us in our mind
Tefilla:
We are able to unknow what we think we know
We think we are so stuck
It takes so long to get to geula
And that life is a certain thing
UNKNOWING ALL THE DRUNKENNESS THE DRUNK PERCEPTIONS
TAP INTO THE REUTA LLIBA
Experience the Havaya amitit
When life feels lifeless
To tap in
To the simcha that’s unstoppable
To find the reference point
To LOSE IT AND COME BACK
TO LOSE IT AND COME BACK
From our crazy knowing’s
Go to a place of unknowable
Tap into what our heart knows
And totally unknowable in our brain
YESH HASHEM BKIRBAINU
Our antidote to amalek
That exceeds all the darkness
Wraps our heart in the knowingness
2/25/2021 / 13 Adar TAANIS ESTHER
On Purim rav Kook came out of his shell one step further
Enabling us to tap in to his inner world
Nichnas yayin nachnas sod
More than anything we need in our lives
The secrets will be revealed
When we reveal the secrets
We will recognize ourselves
What hidden inside of us
Intoxicated to the state of not knowing
In that moment, to the place of not knowing
We will be released of all the knowing’s that are trapping us
We know how where the world looks like
And yet we don’t
We don’t know the soul of the story
What we are looking for is the ability to tap into the unknown hidden picture
In each of us
When we access healing
That even though I have a lot of middos that look unsolvable
They look sick and unhealthy
We convince ourselves that’s who we are
The healing comes when we find the T
Tap into this hidden health
The healthy part hidden with the life of hashem
There’s enough of the chius
It’s able to be mashpia the side that’s most public
What you see what you first encounter yourself and other people
Filled with light part of ourselves
And heal the other parts.
This happens on a national level
GO GATHER ALL THE JEWISH PEOPLE
How with all the complications of where we are at
How can you say we are one nation?
Because we have to admit our mistake that we have judged the Jewish people on the external stuff
When we see intense hatred
That’s just the external
Inside of all of that
The hidden yahadut
This is the big soul of the big nation
That carries the suffering of the world
And the light
The unknown essence
Makes itself known to us
From the place that is not known
Which is the soul of the nation
From that place all the way within
That calls out the achdut
In order to get there
We have to unknow
We ARE DRUNK
ON THE KNOWING AND JUDGEMENTS OF THE EXTERNAL WORLD
Tap into I DON’T KNOW
I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S GOOD AND WHAT’S BAD
When entering the space of ad delo yada
Then I can tap into what a know in my heart
In my self
And in my nation
The final piece is WHAT IS SIMCHA
A hard thing this Purim
How do we tap into that?
Rabbi itchi meyer Morgenstern
Time of megillah
The deepest light of shefa and consciousness of hashem comes in
What if you don’t feel it
Then you have to KNOW THAT IT IS SO
Know it is coming in anyways
With that knowing that Purim is the light in the darkness
All the torah is there
And your neshama is receiving it anyway
BELIEVE IT TO BE TRUE
Tap into the experience
Know it’s happening
That’s you access point of experiencing the light
Know that it happens anyway
Lech lkol hayehudim
It’s happening as we are doing all the things we are doing
Eshev: emuna simcha and bitachon
Even if we don’t feel the light
If we have the Emunah
Bchoshech b or li
Micha: bchoshech b orli
When I sit in darkness hashem is my light
Rashi when I am willing to face the darkness, that’s how I can see the light
Sitting in the darkness
Hashem
Ashev I will sit IN THE DARKNESS
If I sit in the darkness with trust that we are in the middle of the story
We can write Megillas
THIS STORY WE ARE IN RIGHT NOW
We are Esther, we need to step up
Now.
Its hashems story
Just like the felt sense of the reality
Which is a costume of hashem
Hatenua hadeerit
A constant flow of reality
So to the experience of Havaya
What was is will be
On the level of ide
Is based on a simcha that never stops
SIMCHA HABILTI POSEKET
THE WHOLE WORLD IS CONSTANTLY IN SIMCHA
Simcha is the innermost Gdly BEINGNESS
Not my judgement this is a good or bad situation
This moment IS
THE INNER BEINGNESS
THAT HASHEM IS IN THIS
THE BIGGEST oneg
Is the joy that we feel of hashem atzmo
His Atzmus
We know that not knowing can grasp hashem
So how is it possible to access hashem
Grasped in the chambers of our heart
Even when our mind might not understand hashem
Why or how
In our heart, discovering the secret place
Beyond whatever knowing of what’s good or bad
The deepest oneg and simcha
Is to just feel the release and letting go
To AD SHE LO YADA
Tapping into
ITS ALL HASHEM
LETT GO
AND FEEL THE HAVAYA PNIMIT
Of what is in this moment.
the final piece which typifies Purim…
RAV CHARLOP: In this letter. Ish Elokim Kadosh
All those rejoicing with him in the inner joy of Purim. In the midst of a magnitude of holy emotions
Of the exuberant joy of your simcha
Bring up the consciousness of me before you
Keep me in mind
To take pleasure in my love
Let my love for you join your simcha.
From a distance
I will be satisfied with the inner depictions of my nefesh
Of the hidden beauty
Of the harmony and power of your joy
The image of being rejoicing with you
The depth of the power of that joy
That will give me the power to rejoice according to the law of Torah
The most amazing thing.
IMAGINE the picture of what the joy looks like
We can find that emotion
Describing Merkaz Haram:
No boys were allowed to leave yeshiva for Purim!
The difference between Simchat torah and Purim
Simchat torah: internal
Purim: exuded simcha
You were able to tap into the inner simcha.
Chedva: it’s the end of the process
Ezra: they realized they intermarried and wanted to do teshuva and it was rosh hashana
Ki chedvat hashem ozmascha
See the gadol hador
In state of chedvat
The deepest joy that exists
WHEN THE KINGS HEART WAS GOOD WITH WINE
When his inner world was rejoicing with the wine of torah
The wine fermented with the grapes of his soul
Omer raba
Required to be intoxicated
AD DLO YADA
YOU GO ABOVE KNOWING
Go above the sin of the knowledge of good and evil
Till you get to the level of adam harishon
Before the chein
Where is Haman found in the torah
It’s with the eating of daat tov vrah
There’s a higher emet
On every level there’s disconnection mixed with connection as a result of the tov v ra
We are making separations
This is good this is bad
Arur and baruch
On Purim we strive to KNOW WHAT’S A BOVE THAT
AITZ HACHAIM
KULO ECHAD
ALL ONE
IT ALL
IS
ITS ALL
GDLY
WHAT’S our access point
The EITZ HACHAIM
THE TORAH
Lmachazikim ba
The torah of life
Kimu vkiblu
On Purim they receive the Eitz hachaim of torah
The consciousness of choosing the torah bAHAVA
THIS IS THE LIFE FORCE
IT’S THE deepest point of Torah.
At the party they gave to each person the wine of the place where they came to
The wine rav kook gave to people who came
He gave the Torah what their neshama could receive
MOADIE RE’IYA
Everyone was sitting around the table of rav kook.
IN yerushalayim
Tapping into the truth of torah
Was drunk from the wine of torah
The chidushim were glistening
Emerging from his mouth
Pilpulim of how it came together
The inner joy was great
People started to come up with chochmas
And surrounded him with complicated questions.
They came from nowhere
The torah of Purim are the etz hachaim
It was all one the roots
Rav kook went into the valleys and mountains of torah
Discussion. They stayed up all night
Rav kook showed them how to LOVE EVERY YID TILL DOWN BROKE
If there’s anything that the simcha of Purim
To see the tzadikim of yisrael
To find ahavas yisrael in every pasuk
That’s what it means to be in the Eitz hachaim
To know that the light is there
When we are in a state of she lo yada
Tap into it
At any point on Purim realize this beyond the external
Frustrated with the external
Planning for the unknown
Get into all the frustration of trying to plan Purim
It’s all hashems
You can drink even though usually you cannot.
Your whole being is elevated on Purim
If you’re a woman
the nature of the day brings you there
surrender from the external
and the internal is the most powerful
know and choose to believe
and live in it
access point the neshama inside me.