GEVURA SHE B’NETZACH
Hirhurim – Iyar – Rectifying Thoughts
BS”D
GEVURA SHE B’NETZACH
The chush / sense of Iyar is THOUGHT / Hirhurim
Based on the learning from Rav Yehuda Lev Ashlag
“Tapestry for the Soul” by Yedidah Cohen
“Even in this, [my trigger] my matzav ב , I exist in total perfection that is fitting and appropriate to the perfect Creator who made me.”
(Echad > Yachid > Meyuchad)
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Learning Tapestry for the Soul / chapter 7
The true nature of the body and its purpose
Our present body
Is not our
true body at all!
Our true body
our eternal body/ matzav ג
Is perfect
And is already available, existing, and established
Within the Ein Sof
In this Matzav ב(Now in this lifetime)
The state of lkabel almanat lkabel / the will to receive for itself alone
It causes separation from HKB”H / Ein Sof
And I connect to the Sefira of
GEVURA SHE B’NETZACH
Steps for Transforming and Rectifying Thoughts
The chush / Sense of Iyar is THOUGHT / Hirhurim
RECOGNIZE the moment. STOP! I am in a state of nefila / falling into my negative thought pattern / midda / taiva / self judgement
RECOGNIZE this is a state of perfection, created by the Perfect Creator
RATZO RUN “Hashem please help me. I feel the fire / feeling of constriction trigger. I don’t want this and I can’t do this without you.
FEEL THE SIMCHA I can actually feel happy about this feeling / emotion / taiva because it was placed in me for this tikkun (to elevate to my yechida-soul level)
BARUCH HASHEM Thank you Hashem. I don’t need to fall into this negative thought pattern anymore. I get it now!
SHOV/ RETURN be present / bring the light back into the relationship with your self and others. Return to your heart center and feel the Shechina presence
BE CONSCIOUS that I fulfilled my tikkun for my soul, and collectively for Knesset Yisrael and the world
Say a pasuk / do a mitzva / do chesed / learn Torah
Longer version
1. RECOGNIZE the moment. STOP! I am in a state of nefila / falling into my negative thought pattern / midda / taiva / self judgement
2. RECOGNIZE this is a state of perfection, created by the Perfect Creator
Don’t complain! This thought/hirhur/trigger is enabling me to repair it and do this tikkun. It makes it possible for me to receive my eternal body in Matzav ג in all actuality. I choose not to complain and fall into my usual pattern of self judgement, guilt and shame, as THIS IS MY AVODA and can only be carried out while in this temporal body.
3. RATZO RUN “Hashem please help me. I feel the fire / feeling of constriction trigger. I don’t want this and I can’t do this without you.
I am in a state of total perfection
in this moment
that is fitting to the perfect Creator
who made me.
My body is destined to be negated.
I have it for a limited time
which is necessary to do this bitul
and receive my eternal form.
Even in my imperfection I am perfect.
My body
My will to receive for myself alone
In all its manifestations,
Physical mental emotional and spiritual
Gives me the Avoda of tikkun
This is an opportunity
to fulfill the purpose of creation, matzav ג
I need this ‘defective’ will to receive
because I cannot heal that which I do not have within me.
I look truthfully at my
will to receive for myself alone
Which brings up fear, shame, self criticism and unworthiness
I recognize these feelings are a huge block
To my progress from nefesh>ruach>neshama > yechida journey
I choose to focus on this quote from Rav Ashlag
“Even in this, [my trigger] my matzav ב , I exist in total perfection that is fitting and appropriate to the perfect Creator who made me.”
4. FEEL THE SIMCHA I can actually feel happy about this feeling / emotion / taiva because it was placed in me for this tikkun (to elevate to my yechida-soul level)
I realize this requires HEALING / TIKKUN
AND YES!!!!
I CAN BE HAPPY ABOUT IT!
It was placed in me for this specific purpose
Of having to do the work of fixing it
5. BARUCH HASHEM Thank you Hashem. I don’t need to fall into this negative thought pattern anymore. I get it now!
6. SHOV/ RETURN be present / bring the light back into the relationship with your self and others. Return to your heart center and feel the Shechina presence
7. BE CONSCIOUS that I fulfilled my tikkun for my soul, and collectively for Knesset Yisrael and the world
I am fulfilling my role
Of bringing complete tikkun
For my soul, Am Yisrael and the whole of humanity.
8. Say a pasuk / do a mitzva / do chesed / learn Torah
“Ayn Od Milvado”
MEDITATION
-Devorah Hadassa Lieberman
and Rochel Leah Weiman
My life here in this body
Of Matzav ב
Is super critical
How could hashem want it to be this way?
How can I arrive at a place of acceptance?
Being ok with this tikkun process?
Holding it?
Embracing it?
How do I expand?
How can I show compassionate to my self and others (in their moments of trigger)?
How do I integrate this thought
And transform it to being b’simcha?
I choose to receive
The good thoughts
And the “bad” thoughts
As One
Created by the Perfect Creator
In the fatigue (I am counting and doing this tikkun again!... 49 days yet another year!)
In the sefira of netzach
I am victorious and allowing myself to be present
This is taking so much gevura
And I run to Hashem
With His help
and with the Torah and the teachings of the Tzadikim
And the support of each other
We can do this
We are being blocked from the simcha
Not being in the moment
We are In that darkness
This is precisely where we have to do the tikkun
The Sitra achra / Yetzer hara / Amalek
Keeps us out of the present moment
So I Breath
I am my higher self
It can be clear if I am conscious
Matzav gimel is there
I am drawing from my eternal body
In this moment
I recognize the Perfect Creator / Tzelem Elokim is me
And you
I am perfect
Even in this state
Of being despicable, triggered etc
I catch myself
Im in this state… of matzav ב
By design
Holding the paradox
On the one hand created from dust
and the other I am created btzelem Elokim
I am perfect because I am tzelem elokim
I am beloved
Of my body being so lowly
Yet So holy
wholy
I am doing the Avoda of
Tikkun ha machshavos
Transforming my thoughts
And drawing from matzav ג
my perfected state
already here within me
Meyuchad
I choose to be present
I choose to integrate
The joy
And gratitude
Of this moment right now
Of Connection/ torah/ alignment /oneness /wholeness
I am thankful for this reinforcement
And support of my soul sisters
Sing “Mizmor lTodah… emunato”
Its my my bechira / choice
to be be present
To be resilient
to be whole / shleimut
And I do these steps (see steps)
I thank Hashem for this journey
To be happy
To let go of judgment
I thank you, Hashem
For this body
(breath and connect to all of your limbs from crown to feet / keter to malchut)
And breath into all my avarim
All my Cells
Filling with neshima
Connecting to the kedusha of each part of my physical body
And emotional and psychological parts of my self
You are giving me this taiva / thought / matzav ב
To connect to the present
Its not about the past or future
I ask Hashem
for your help to do this
Because I feel the fire /heat / constriction
even if I don’t see it
I activate my emunah
I have emunah that there is light in this darkness
I feel the vibration
the Chash / mal vacillation
In this sefira of netzach
as I transform this thought
To light
Choosing resilience and victory
No longer the victim, but victory
Being in that I am created perfectly
Even in this yachid existence of separation / perud
I am actively creating my higher self
drawing closer and closer
choosing happiness
and to be a source of bracha to all those in my life
in this matzav ב