Balm for the Heart
BS”D
CREATING A BALM FOR THE HEART - FROM 3 SAMIM
[Tomer Devora - Perek Beis]
A remedy whereby a person can cure him/her self of the disease of hautiness (cholei ha gaiva) and allowing ones self to enter the gates of humility (shaarei ha anava)
From these 3 potions (shaloshet samim) one should make a balm (tachboshet) for his/her heart, and he should train him/her self with this approach all his/her days.
1. Running from kavod
2. Seeing ourselves as lowly
3. Rejoicing in insults and (contrary to the typical reaction) desire them.
HaRishona - One should accustom oneself to flee as far as possible from honor.
For if he accustoms himself to being honored by other people, he will acquire the HABIT OF GAIVA, and by nature the person will always desire this. Then Only with great difficulty will he be able to be healed.HaShniya – One should accustom his mind to seeing his shameful side.
HaShlishit –One should constantly contemplate his sins and desire purification, and rebuke and suffering (through scorn and shame), and ask himself. “Which type of suffering is the best int this world which will not distract me from avodas H-shem?. Surely there is none better than these: to be scorned, shamed or cursed, for these will not deprive a person of power and strength through illness, nor will they deprive him of his food and clothing or deprive him of his life or the lives of his children…Thus, when insults are meted out to a person, they will rejoice in them, and contrary to the typical reaction, he will desire them.
May this learning be in the merit of a refua sheleima of Maayan Bat Devorah Hadassa
Balm for the Heart
We are creating a protective sheath around our heart
A sealed measure of protection
By running from kavod
Seeing ourselves as lowly
Seeking degradation instead of illness
Ratzo shav
To protect our connection to our Gdly soul
Maintaining this state of equilibrium
Shielding from outside situations and drama
Creating the balm for our heart
Protecting that place of inner peace
Learning that in order to be effective as H-shem’s servant
To bring his light in the world
We must protect our heart
From our natural instinct and imbedded thought patterns
I want to create a balm for my heart
To not yearn for kavod
Or be fulfilled by it
Like a drug
I distance myself from kavod
When receiving a compliment
I acknowledge the “feel good”
In that moment, I want to connect to keter / anivus
As I ratzo… run…
H’, I want to be with You right now
To grow / expand
To shine H’s light and not my own light
And shav… return…
Its only You.
protecting my inner place of sheleimus
that is connected to H-shem
Releasing the Shechina in exile within
We’ve be running and returning in
moments of pain and insult
But with someone giving kavod?
There’s no pain
In the compliment
Put a balm around our heart
Give the kavod to H’
See the detriment and
do not seek and get accustomed to kavod
May I merit to train my machshavot/thoughts
to go above my teva rishon / natural instinct
creating the soothing balm for sheket pnimius / inner calm
AFFIRMATION
׳ום לשׁנה
In the moment of accusations /scorn / shame / disrespect
I desire tikun from this rebuke and suffering
and ask which type of suffering is the best in this world
which will not distract me from Avodos H”? When insults are meted out to me
I will rejoice in them
and contrary to my very nature
and typical reaction
I will desire them
from this potion
I make a balm for my heart…
I run to you H’
in this moment of humility
thanking you
yearning for this
instead of physical yesurim
which would keep me from serving you
with energy and zerizus
Thank You for this challenging moment
while feeling the surges of heat
and fiery chiyas / life force
The Shechina in exile
beckoning to come out of her hiding place
The dark clouds are surrounding me
are pregnant with rain
abondant bracha
which will be blown away with the next wind
allowing the bright light of yeshua to follow
I contemplate the words of the Shomer Emunim
“A year, a day”
(Miraculous Salvations pg. 92)
When one is faced with being insulted
I accept it with love
and may i be rewarded with a year a day
that one year of pain that was destined for me
become one day of pain,
and may I no longer suffer.
I am accepting the insult / criticism / hurtful words / accusations
with complete emunah
that this nisayon
is coming directly form H’
Who is in essence
“hiding” behind the person
and I say to You
“Thank you, H’ for this challenge
I know that this is a gift for me
and i have bitachon that everything
will be overturned for the good.”
Just as I behaved
beyond my natural feelings and accepted this test with emunah
so too, H-shem will help me beyond the natural realm.
He will take away the lenthy time that I was supposed to struggle…
accepting my challenge lovingly
transforming
through believing
its all from H’
complete goodness
May we be zoche to a year a day
Our day of simcha
should be prolonged to a whole year
in the zechus of one minute of emunah
at the time of nisayaon
12-18-19