Rochel Imeinu - Yahrzeit Meditations - I am the Moon
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π Rachel Imeinu Meditation
Based on Tomer Devorah
I am the moon
Not all powerful
Not All knowing
Not the sun
I diminish
and Rise!
Like my neshima
Hashem breaths me
tamid
Expanding
An expansive inhale
and contracting
A cleansing exhale.
Slowing down
Honoring the moment
Malchus is my essence
My inward lunar smile
glowing
Her presence
in the darkness
Glows essentialism
My being
is a Merkava
for the Shechina HaGola
I exile myself
in Daas
to acquire
the midda of malchus
anivus
earthliness
I have everything I need
I have all my kelim
But the Shechina is in Galus
And her keilim arenβt with Her
So I humble my heart in exile
Yachnia lVavo bGola
And bind myself to Torah
VyitKasher bTorah
And choose to recognize
the fluttering Shechina
dwelling within
Banishing my self
from the comforts of my bayit
Miβbait menuchati
In the way of
Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai.
I trudge by foot
Step by step
As my hope is on Hashem
Breaking my ego
from place to place
Ki Yachid vβoni ani (tehillim 25)
For I am alone
Ki Yachid
And I am poor
VβOni Ani
Hashkata
Quieting my mind
like our mother Rachel
Returning to the
lost Art
of crying
Sensing the water
painting my cheeks;
downward brushstrokes
sparkling, salty, primordial
waters of malchus
In dveikus
I actively choose and believe
to draw down bracha;
bearing witness to the wetness and the warm downward movement
of my humbled heart
Tingling my cheeks
Chochma and Bina
Flow into Daas
Finding that assured
thin quiet voice
it the right time
with Ima Rachel
Connecting with her neshama
in patience
Not allowing the
chitzonim of fear
To enter my sacred space
Not fearing any
sheluchim ketanim
Like covid
Distract my complete kavana
fearing only
the honored and
awesome Hashem
LβIra et Hashem
haNICHBAD (covid)
vβhaNora
- R. Weiman
Mother Rochel's tears
Rest
Unabsorbed
Holding space for mine
Fresh
Healing
Strengthening
Us from the beginning of time
Mother of us all
-Devorah Hadassa Liebermann
Tefilla on the Yahrzeit of Rachel Imeinu
Light a candle
Give some tzedakah
Daven to connect with her holy middos
If you canβt go in person, change the tefillah to say that you want very much to pray at her gravesite (Rebbetzin Yehudis Golshevsky)
ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°Χ’ΧΦΉΧ¨Φ΅Χ¨ ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ
ΧΧΦ΄Χ Χ¨ΦΈΧ¦ΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦΈΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦΈΧ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΈΧ, Χ©ΦΆΧΧͺΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΌΧ‘ ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ·ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΧ Χ’Φ·Χ Χ’Φ·ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ ΧΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ°Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦ²ΧΦΈΧͺΦ°ΧΦΈ ___ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧͺ ____ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ. ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ ΧΦ±ΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ, Χ¨Φ°ΧΦ΅Χ Χ ΦΈΧ ΧΦ°Χ’ΦΈΧ Φ°ΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦΌ. ΧΦΌΧ¨Φ°ΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ²Χ©ΦΆΧΧ¨ Χ’ΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ¨ Χ’ΦΈΧΦ·Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦ²Χ Φ΄Χ ΧΦΈΧ¨Φ·Χͺ Χ ΦΈΧ€ΦΆΧ©Χ ΧΦ°Χ’ΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ¨ Χ’ΦΈΧΦ·Χ Χ¦Φ·Χ’Φ·Χ¨. ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ, ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²ΧΦ΅Χ¨ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ¦Φ·Χ’Φ·Χ¨ ΧΦ°Χ¦ΦΈΧ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦΆΦΌΧ Φ΄ΦΌΧ, ΧΦΌΧͺΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ Φ΄Χ ΧΦ°Χ§ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Φ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΅ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ΄ΧͺΦ°ΧΦΈΦΌΧ¨Φ·ΧΦ° ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ, ΧΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦΉΧ¨ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦΉΦΌΧΦΆΧ Χ¦Φ΄ΧΦ°Χ§ΧΦΌΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΧΦ· Χ§Φ°ΧΦ»Χ©Φ·ΦΌΧΧͺ Χ¦Φ°Χ Φ΄ΧΧ’ΧΦΌΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ ΧΦΌΧΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ©ΦΆΧΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ·ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧΦ΄ΧΧ ΧΦ²Χ©ΦΆΧΧ¨ ΧΦ΅Χ ΧͺΦΈΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΧ ΧΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦΉΦΌΧΦΆΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧͺΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΧΦΉ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ΄ΧͺΦ°Χ€Φ·ΦΌΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ: "Χ¨Φ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧ ΧΦΉ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Χ’ΧΦΉΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧ’ΦΈΧ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ’ΦΈΧΦ·Χ ΧΦΈΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦ°Χ Φ΄ΧΧ‘ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ²ΧΧΦΉΧͺΦ΄Χ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ°Χ§ΧΦΉΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦ»Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ, ΧΦΈΧ‘Φ·Χ¨Φ°ΧͺΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦΈΧΦΌ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ·Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧΧΦΈΧ Φ΄ΧΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦ΅Χ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦΉΦΌΧ ΧͺΦ΅ΦΌΧ¦Φ΅Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧ¨Φ°Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ. ΧΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ²Χ Φ΄Χ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ²Χ Φ΄Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧ¨ ΧΦΈΧΦΈΧ Χ’ΦΈΧ€ΦΈΧ¨ ΧΦΈΧΦ΅Χ€ΦΆΧ¨ ΧΦΉΧ Χ§Φ΄Χ Φ΅ΦΌΧΧͺΦ΄Χ ΧΦ·Χ¦ΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ, ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΧ ΧΧΦΉΧ¦Φ΅ΧΧͺΦ΄ΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧ ΧΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧ¨Φ°Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧͺΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦΆΧΦΆΧΦ° ΧΦ·Χ ΧΦ°Χ§Φ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°Χ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦΌΧΦ΄Χ€Φ°ΦΌΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦΈΧ Χ§Φ΄Χ Φ΅ΦΌΧΧͺΦΈ ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²ΧΧΦΉΧΦ·Χͺ ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧΦΈΧΦ΄ΧΧ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦΈΦΌΧΦΌ ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©Χ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦ΅ΧΧͺΦΈ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Φ·Χ ΧΦ°Χ ΦΆΧΦΆΧ¨Φ°ΧΧΦΌ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧΦΆΧ¨ΦΆΧ. ΧΦ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ Φ΄ΧͺΦ°ΧΦ·ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΧΦΌ Χ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΈΧΧ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ ΧΦ·Χ§ΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΉΧ©Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΧΦΌΧΦ° ΧΧΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧΦ·Χ¨: ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ©Φ°ΧΧΦ΄ΧΧΦ΅ΧΦ° Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ²Χ Φ΄Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦ²ΧΦ΄ΧΧ¨ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°Χ§ΧΦΉΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧ ΧΦ·Χ Χ©ΦΆΦΌΧΧΦΈΧΦ·Χ¨ ΧΦ΄Χ¨Φ°ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ·Χ ΦΈΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΧ: "ΧΦΉΦΌΧ ΧΦΈΧΦ·Χ¨ Χ', Χ§ΧΦΉΧ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧΦΈΧ Χ Φ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧΦΈΧ’ Χ Φ°ΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦ΄Χ ΧͺΦ·ΧΦ°Χ¨ΧΦΌΧ¨Φ΄ΧΧ, Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ΅ΧΦ²Χ ΦΈΧ
ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄Χ ΦΈΦΌΧΦ΅Χ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΦΆΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ. ΧΦΉΦΌΧ ΧΦΈΧΦ·Χ¨ Χ', ΧΦ΄Χ Φ°Χ’Φ΄Χ Χ§ΧΦΉΧΦ΅ΧΦ° ΧΦ΄ΧΦΆΦΌΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°Χ’Φ΅ΧΧ Φ·ΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ°Χ’ΦΈΧ, ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ΅Χ©Χ Χ©ΦΈΧΧΦΈΧ¨ ΧΦ΄Χ€Φ°Χ’Φ»ΧΦΈΦΌΧͺΦ΅ΧΦ° Χ Φ°ΧΦ»Χ Χ' ΧΦ°Χ©ΦΈΧΧΧΦΌ ΧΦ΅ΧΦΆΧ¨ΦΆΧ₯ ΧΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ΅Χ©Χ ΧͺΦ΄ΦΌΧ§Φ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦ²Χ¨Φ΄ΧΧͺΦ΅ΧΦ° Χ Φ°ΧΦ»Χ Χ' ΧΦ°Χ©ΦΈΧΧΧΦΌ ΧΦΈΧ Φ΄ΧΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧΦΈΧ". ΧΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ ΧͺΦΌΧΦΉΧ©Φ΄ΧΧΧ’Φ΅Χ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧͺΦΈΧΦ΄ΧΧ ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦΌ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ°Χ©Φ΄ΧΧΧΦ· Χ¦Φ΄ΧΦ°Χ§Φ΅Χ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ§ΦΈΧ¨ΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©Χ, ΧΦΌΧΦ°Χ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧΧͺ ΧΦ·ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ§Φ°ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©Χ, ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧΦΉΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧͺΧΦΉΧΦ° ΧΦ°Χ¨ΧΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧΦ·ΧΦ΄Χ Χ’Φ΄ΧΧ¨Φ°ΧΦΈ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧΦ²Χ©ΦΆΧΧ¨ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ·ΦΌΧ¨Φ°ΧͺΦΈΦΌ, ΧΦΌΧΦ°Χ Φ΅Χ ΧΧΦΉΧͺΦΈΧΦΌ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ Φ°ΧΦ·Χ Χ’ΧΦΉΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦ΅Χ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌ. ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦ΄ΧͺΦ°ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Χ’Φ·Χ Χ’Φ·Χ Χ§ΦΈΧΦ°Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦΈ. ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧΦ·Χ’ ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧͺΦ·Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ§Φ·Χͺ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ²Χ©ΦΆΧΧ¨ ΧΦ²Χ Φ΄Χ Χ§ΧΦΉΧ¨Φ΅ΧΧͺ ΧΦ΅ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ΅Χ Χ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦ°Χ Φ΄Χ©ΦΈΦΌΧΧ. ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ, Χ¨Φ°ΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ·Χ Χ©ΦΆΦΌΧΧ’ΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ¨ Χ’ΦΈΧΦ·Χ ΧΦ°ΧͺΧΦΉΧ©Φ΄ΧΧΧ’Φ΅Χ Φ΄Χ (ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€ΦΈΧ¨Φ΅Χ©Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΧΦΈ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧΦΈΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧ§ΦΈΦΌΧ©ΧΧΦΉΧͺΦΆΧΧΦΈ). ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ, ΧΦ·ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ΅ΧΧΦΉΧΦ·Χ, Χ§Φ·ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧͺΦ·Χ ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΉΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ°Χ©Φ·ΧΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦ΅Χ Φ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ’Φ·ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ ΧΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ, ΧΦ°ΧͺΦΈΧΦ΅Χ Χ’ΦΈΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦΌ ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ ΧΦΈΧΦΈΧΧΦΉΧͺ ΧΦ·Χ§Φ°ΦΌΧΧΦΉΧ©Φ΄ΧΧΧ ΧΦ·ΧΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄Χ¦Φ°ΧΦΈΧ§ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ§ΦΉΧ, ΧΦΌΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ ΧΦΈΧΦ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΉΧͺ ΧΦ·Χ§Φ°ΦΌΧΧΦΉΧ©ΧΧΦΉΧͺ Χ©ΦΈΧΧ¨ΦΈΧ Χ¨Φ΄ΧΦ°Χ§ΦΈΧ Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦ΅ΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΦΌΧ¨ ΧΧΦΉΧͺΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΧΦΉΧ ΧΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧΦ°ΧΦΆΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΉΧͺ ΧΦ΄Χ©ΦΈΦΌΧΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ©Φ΅ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦΌΧ¦Φ°Χ ΧΦΌΧ’ΦΈΧ, ΧΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧ¨Φ΅ΧΦ° ΧΦΆΧͺ Χ©Φ΄ΧΧΦ°ΧΦΈ ΧΦ·ΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ΅ΧΧΦΉΧΦ·Χ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΧΦΌΧΦ° ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦ»ΧΦΈΦΌΧ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΌΧ, ΧΦΆΧΦΈΧΧΦΌΧ¨ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΌΧ¨, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧͺΦ΄ΧΧ§ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦΈΧͺΦ΄ΧΧ§ΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧΦ° ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦΌΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦΆΧΦΈΧ‘Φ΄ΧΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ²Χ‘Φ΄ΧΧΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΧΦΉΧΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧ¨ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ·Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·ΧΦ°ΧΦ»ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦΈΧΧΦΉΧ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΌΧ, ΧΦ·ΧΦΆΦΌΧΦΆΧΦ° ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·Χ ΦΌΧΦΉΧ¨ΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ ΧΦΉΧ¨ΦΈΧΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦ·Χ‘Φ·ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ‘Φ·ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦΆΧ’ΦΈΧ ΦΈΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ’Φ²Χ ΦΈΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦ·Χ€ΦΌΧΦΉΧΦΆΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ€Φ°ΧΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·Χ¦Φ·ΦΌΧΦ΄ΦΌΧΧ§ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ¦Φ°ΧΦΈΧ§ΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦ·Χ§ΦΈΦΌΧΧΦΉΧ©Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ§Φ°ΧΦ»Χ©ΦΌΧΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦΈΧ¨Φ·ΧΧΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΈΧ ΧΦΌΧͺ, ΧΦ·Χ©Φ·ΦΌΧΧ¨ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧ¨ΧΦΉΧͺ, ΧΦ·ΧͺΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ Φ΅Χ ΧͺΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΧΧΦΌΧͺ. ΧΧΦΉΧΦ΅ΧΦ° ΧΦΈΧΧΦΉΧ¨ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦ΅Χ§ΦΆΧ¨, ΧΦΌΧΦ΄ΧΧ ΦΈΧ ΧΧΦΉ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧͺΦ·ΦΌΧΦ°ΧΦ΄ΧΧͺ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΉΧΦ· ΧΦΈΧ’Φ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·Χ©Φ΅ΦΌΧΧΦΆΧ ΧΦΈΧΧΦΉΧ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧΧΦΌΧ ΦΈΧͺΦΆΧΦΈ. ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ Χ’Φ²ΧΦΉΧ¨ ΧΦ΄Χ, ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ©Φ΅ΧΧ ΧΦ°Χ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦΉΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧ©Φ°ΧΧΧΦΌ ΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ Φ΅Χ ΧΦΈΧΦΈΧ, ΧΦΌΧͺΦ°ΧͺΦ·Χ§Φ΅ΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦΈΦΌΧΦΈΧ¨ Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ΅ΧΧ ΧΦΉ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧ©ΦΌΧΧΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Φ·ΦΌΧ’Φ²Χ©ΦΈΧΧ ΧΦ°Χ Φ΄ΧͺΦ°Χ§Φ·ΧΦ°Χ§Φ·Χ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦΈΧΦ΄Χ ΧΧΦΉ Χ©ΦΆΧΧ Φ΄ΦΌΧΦ°Χ¨Φ·Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ‘Φ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧͺΦ΄Χ, ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ‘Φ°ΧΦ·Χ ΧΦΌΧͺΦ°ΧΦ·Χ€Φ΅ΦΌΧ¨ ΧΦ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧ¨Φ·ΧΦ²ΧΦΆΧΧΦΈ, ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧΦ°ΧΦΆΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΦΉΦΌΧ§ ΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈ ΧΦ°ΧΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ©ΧΧΦΉΧͺ Χ¨Φ°Χ¦ΧΦΉΧ ΦΆΧΦΈ, ΧΦ±ΧΦΉΧΦ΅Χ ΧΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χ, ΧΦ°ΧΦ·ΧΦΆΧΦΆΧͺ ΧΦΌΧΦ°Χ¦Φ·Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΧ©ΧΧΦΌΧ’ΦΈΧͺΦ°ΧΦΈ, ΧΦΈΧ ΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ·Χ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ©Φ΄ΧΧΧΦ΅Χ Φ΄Χ Χ¨Φ΅ΧΧ§ΦΈΧ. ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΌ ΧΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ¦ΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°Χ¨Φ΅Χ Χ€Φ΄Χ ΧΦ°ΧΦΆΧΦ°ΧΧΦΉΧ ΧΦ΄ΧΦ΄ΦΌΧ ΧΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧΧΦΈ, Χ' Χ¦ΧΦΌΧ¨Φ΄Χ
ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΉΧΦ²ΧΦ΄Χ, ΧΦΈΧΦ΅Χ Χ ΦΆΧ¦Φ·Χ Χ‘ΦΆΧΦΈΧ ΧΦΈΧ’ΦΆΧ
ΧΦ·ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧΦΈΦΌΧ ΧΦ°ΧΦ»Χ‘ΦΆΦΌΧΦΆΧͺ Χ’Φ·Χ ΧΦ·ΧΦ·ΧΦ°Χ¨Φ΅Χ ΧΦ²ΧΦ·"Χ ΧΦ·ΦΌΧΦ°ΦΌΧΦΈΧ¨ΦΈΧ, ΧΦ΄ΧΦ°Χ¨Φ·Χ©Χ Χ¨Φ·ΧΦΈΦΌΧ Χ€Φ°ΦΌΧͺΦ΄ΧΧΦ·Χͺ ΧΦ΅ΧΧΦΈΧ, Χ‘Φ΅Χ€ΦΆΧ¨ ΧΦ΄Χ¨Φ°ΧΦ°ΧΦΈΧ ΧΧ, ΧΧ - ΧΧ, Χ‘Φ΅Χ€ΦΆΧ¨ Χ©Φ·ΧΧ’Φ²Χ¨Φ΅Χ Χ¦Φ΄ΧΦΌΧΦΉΧ - Χ©Φ·ΧΧ’Φ·Χ¨ Χ' ΧΦ°ΧΧΦΉΧ Χ¨Φ°ΧΦ΄ΧΧ’Φ΄Χ).
Wear Your Crown Proud, Ladies
Thought I would share a personal reflection on my corona experienceβ¦. I am, thank Gd, getting stronger by the day - but thought this forum might appreciate what came out while I was briefly hospitalized. May we wear our crowns proud! - Leiba Smith, Shiviti chat
Breathing in
Forced oxygen
In covid unit Keter 1
Keter 1, Crown 1
Corona is, after all, a crown
And I wear mine, not jewel-encrusted with rubies and pearls
But crafted of curvaceous cannulae,
Clear, plastic tubes I can insert at will
With long continuations that loop
Behind my ears, and join, secured, to complete the crown
Fastened beneath my chin.
I breathe through my crown,
And I feel regal, monarchic,
As I rule my shortness of breath
Command the rise and fall of my lungs
To raise the O2 stats that had sunk too low.
Of all the crowns my current life might bring
This is not the crown I had sought to wear,
But I wear it proud, ladies.
I wear it proud
Because I know, over time, true malchut is mine
How can it not be?
To anyone blessed with the Keter of Corona,
Wear your crown proud, ladies.
Find your malchut. Breathe it in deeply.
Breathe it in clear.
Other crowns will surely come your way,
But for the moment, this is the one you must bear.
So wear your crown proud.