Rochel Imeinu - Yahrzeit Meditations - I am the Moon

 
Mother Rochel's tears holding space for every woman's tears - Devorah Hadassah Lieberman

Mother Rochel's tears holding space for every woman's tears - Devorah Hadassah Lieberman

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πŸŒ™ Rachel Imeinu Meditation

Based on Tomer Devorah

 

I am the moon

Not all powerful

Not All knowing

Not the sun

 

I diminish

and Rise!

Like my neshima

 

Hashem breaths me

tamid

Expanding

An expansive inhale

and contracting

A cleansing exhale.

 

Slowing down

Honoring the moment

Malchus is my essence

My inward lunar smile

glowing

 

Her presence

in the darkness

Glows essentialism

 

My being

is a Merkava

for the Shechina HaGola

 

I exile myself

in Daas

to acquire

the midda of malchus

anivus

earthliness

 

I have everything I need

I have all my kelim

But the Shechina is in Galus

And her keilim aren’t with Her

So I humble my heart in exile

Yachnia lVavo bGola

 

And bind myself to Torah

VyitKasher bTorah

And choose to recognize

the fluttering Shechina

dwelling within

 

Banishing my self

from the comforts of my bayit

Mi’bait menuchati

In the way of

Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai.

 

I trudge by foot

Step by step

As my hope is on Hashem

Breaking my ego

from place to place

 

Ki Yachid v’oni ani (tehillim 25)

For I am alone

Ki Yachid

And I am poor

V’Oni Ani

 

Hashkata

Quieting my mind

like our mother Rachel

Returning to the

lost Art

of crying

 

Sensing the water

painting my cheeks;

downward brushstrokes

sparkling, salty, primordial

waters of malchus

 

In dveikus

I actively choose and believe

to draw down bracha;

bearing witness to the wetness and the warm downward movement

of my humbled heart

 

Tingling my cheeks

Chochma and Bina

Flow into Daas

 

Finding that assured

thin quiet voice

it the right time

with Ima Rachel

Connecting with her neshama

in patience

 

Not allowing the

chitzonim of fear

To enter my sacred space

 

Not fearing any

sheluchim ketanim

Like covid

Distract my complete kavana

 

fearing only

the honored and

awesome Hashem

L’Ira et Hashem

haNICHBAD (covid)

v’haNora

 

- R. Weiman


Mother Rochel's tears

Rest

Unabsorbed

Holding space for mine

Fresh

Healing

Strengthening

Us from the beginning of time

Mother of us all

-Devorah Hadassa Liebermann


Tefilla on the Yahrzeit of Rachel Imeinu

  • Light a candle

  • Give some tzedakah

  • Daven to connect with her holy middos

If you can’t go in person, change the tefillah to say that you want very much to pray at her gravesite (Rebbetzin Yehudis Golshevsky)



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ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧœΦΈΦΌΧ” ΧœΦ°Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧ¨Φ΅Χ¨ Χ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ שׁ֢ל Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ΅ΦΌΧ Χ•ΦΌ

Χ™Χ”Φ΄Χ™ Χ¨ΦΈΧ¦Χ•ΦΉΧŸ ΧžΦ΄ΧœΦ°ΦΌΧ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ אָבִי אָב Χ”ΦΈΧ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΈΧŸ, שׁ֢ΧͺΦΈΦΌΧ—Χ•ΦΌΧ‘ Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ·Χ—Φ°ΧžΦΉΧœ גַל גַמְּךָ Χ™Φ΄Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χœ Χ•Φ°Χ’Φ·Χœ אֲמָΧͺְךָ ___ Χ‘Φ·ΦΌΧͺ ____ Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ שׁ֢ל Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ΅ΦΌΧ Χ•ΦΌ. אָנָּא מִמְּךָ ΧΦ±ΧœΦΉΧ”Φ΅Χ™ Χ™Φ΄Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χœ, רְא֡ה נָא Χ‘Φ°Χ’ΦΈΧ Φ°Χ™Φ΅Χ Χ•ΦΌ Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ’Φ°ΧΦΈΧœΦ΅Χ Χ•ΦΌ. וּרְא֡ה Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧœ אֲשׁ֢ר Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧ‘Φ΅Χ¨ Χ’ΦΈΧœΦ·Χ™ וַאֲנִי מָרַΧͺ נָ׀֢שׁ Χ•Φ°Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧ‘Φ΅Χ¨ Χ’ΦΈΧœΦ·Χ™ Χ¦Φ·Χ’Φ·Χ¨. אָנָּא, Χ”Φ·Χ’Φ²Χ‘Φ΅Χ¨ Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧœ Χ¦Φ·Χ’Φ·Χ¨ Χ•Φ°Χ¦ΦΈΧ¨ΦΈΧ” ΧžΦ΄ΧžΦΆΦΌΧ Φ΄ΦΌΧ™, Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦ°Χ–Φ·Χ›Φ΅ΦΌΧ Φ΄Χ™ ΧœΦ°Χ§ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Φ°Χ‘ΦΈΧ” ΧΦ΅ΧœΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ Χ™Φ΄ΧͺΦ°Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Φ·ΧšΦ° Χ›Φ°ΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ΅ΦΌΧ Χ•ΦΌ, Χ•ΦΌΧ–Φ°Χ›ΦΉΧ¨ א֢Χͺ Χ’ΦΉΦΌΧ“ΦΆΧœ Χ¦Φ΄Χ“Φ°Χ§Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ Χ•Φ°Χ›ΦΉΧ—Φ· קְדֻשַּׁΧͺ Χ¦Φ°Χ Φ΄Χ™Χ’Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ Χ•ΦΌΧžΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ©ΦΆΧ‚Χ™Χ”ΦΈ Χ”Φ·Χ˜ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧ‘Φ΄Χ™Χ אֲשׁ֢ר ה֡ם ΧͺΦΈΦΌΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ“ ΧœΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ, וְא֢Χͺ Χ’ΦΉΦΌΧ“ΦΆΧœ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›Φ΄Χ™ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧͺΦΆΧ™Χ”ΦΈ, Χ›Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧžΦ°Χ‘Φ·Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧ” גַל Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧ™Χ”ΦΈ, Χ›Φ°ΦΌΧžΧ•ΦΉ שׁ֢הִΧͺΦ°Χ€Φ·ΦΌΧœΦ°ΦΌΧœΦΈΧ” ΧœΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ Χ•Φ°ΧΦΈΧžΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ”: "Χ¨Φ΄Χ‘ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧ Χ•ΦΉ שׁ֢ל Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧœΦΈΧ, בְּשָׁגָה Χ©ΦΆΧΧ’ΦΈΧžΦ·Χ“ אָבִי ΧœΦ°Χ”Φ·Χ›Φ°Χ Φ΄Χ™Χ‘ א֢Χͺ אֲחוֹΧͺΦ΄Χ™ Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧžΦ°Χ§Χ•ΦΉΧžΦ΄Χ™ ΧœΦ·Χ—Φ»Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ”, מָבַרְΧͺΦ΄ΦΌΧ™ ΧœΦΈΧ”ΦΌ א֢Χͺ Χ”Φ·Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ΧžΦΈΧ Φ΄Χ™Χ Χ›Φ°ΦΌΧ“Φ΅Χ™ שׁ֢לֹּא Χͺּ֡צ֡א ΧœΦ°Χ—ΦΆΧ¨Φ°Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ”. Χ•ΦΌΧžΦΈΧ” אֲנִי שׁ֢אֲנִי Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧ‚Χ¨ וָדָם Χ’ΦΈΧ€ΦΈΧ¨ וָא֡׀֢ר לֹא קִנּ֡אΧͺΦ΄Χ™ ΧœΦ·Χ¦ΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧ” Χ©ΦΆΧΧœΦ΄ΦΌΧ™, Χ•Φ°ΧœΦΉΧ הוֹצ֡אΧͺΦ΄Χ™Χ”ΦΈ ΧœΦ°Χ‘Χ•ΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧ” Χ•ΦΌΧœΦ°Χ—ΦΆΧ¨Φ°Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ”, וְאַΧͺΦΈΦΌΧ” מ֢ל֢ךְ Χ—Φ·Χ™ וְקַיָּם Χ•Φ°Χ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΈΧŸ, Χ•ΦΌΧžΦ΄Χ€Φ°ΦΌΧ Φ΅Χ™ ΧžΦΈΧ” קִנּ֡אΧͺΦΈ ΧœΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ‘Χ•ΦΉΧ“Φ·Χͺ כּוֹכָבִים Χ©ΦΆΧΧΦ΅Χ™ΧŸ Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ”ΦΌ מַמָּשׁ, Χ•Φ°Χ”Φ΄Χ’Φ°ΧœΦ΅Χ™ΧͺΦΈ א֢Χͺ Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ Φ·Χ™ Χ•Φ°Χ ΦΆΧ”ΦΆΧ¨Φ°Χ’Χ•ΦΌ Χ‘Φ·ΦΌΧ—ΦΆΧ¨ΦΆΧ‘. ΧžΦ΄Χ™ΦΈΦΌΧ“ Χ Φ΄ΧͺΦ°Χ’Φ·ΦΌΧœΦ°Χ’Φ°ΦΌΧœΧ•ΦΌ Χ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΈΧ™Χ• שׁ֢ל הַקָּדוֹשׁ Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Χ•ΦΌΧšΦ° הוּא Χ•Φ°ΧΦΈΧžΦ·Χ¨: Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ©Φ°ΧΧ‘Φ΄Χ™ΧœΦ΅ΧšΦ° Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ אֲנִי ΧžΦ·Χ—Φ²Χ–Φ΄Χ™Χ¨ א֢Χͺ Χ™Φ΄Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χœ ΧœΦ΄ΧžΦ°Χ§Χ•ΦΉΧžΦΈΧ, Χ•Φ°Χ–ΦΆΧ” ΧžΦ·Χ” שּׁ֢אָמַר Χ™Φ΄Χ¨Φ°ΧžΦ°Χ™ΦΈΧ” הַנָּבִיא: "Χ›ΦΉΦΌΧ” אָמַר Χ”', Χ§Χ•ΦΉΧœ Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ¨ΦΈΧžΦΈΧ” נִשְׁמָג Χ Φ°Χ”Φ΄Χ™ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›Φ΄Χ™ ΧͺΦ·ΧžΦ°Χ¨Χ•ΦΌΧ¨Φ΄Χ™Χ, Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧžΦ°Χ‘Φ·Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧ” גַל Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧ™Χ”ΦΈ, ΧžΦ΅ΧΦ²Χ ΦΈΧ”

ΧœΦ°Χ”Φ΄Χ ΦΈΦΌΧ—Φ΅Χ גַל Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ ΦΆΧ™Χ”ΦΈ Χ›Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ א֡ינּ֢נוּ. Χ›ΦΉΦΌΧ” אָמַר Χ”', ΧžΦ΄Χ Φ°Χ’Φ΄Χ™ Χ§Χ•ΦΉΧœΦ΅ΧšΦ° ΧžΦ΄Χ‘ΦΆΦΌΧ›Φ΄Χ™ Χ•Φ°Χ’Φ΅Χ™Χ Φ·Χ™Φ΄Χš ΧžΦ΄Χ“Φ΄ΦΌΧžΦ°Χ’ΦΈΧ”, Χ›Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ י֡שׁ Χ©ΦΈΧ‚Χ›ΦΈΧ¨ לִ׀ְגֻלָּΧͺ֡ךְ נְאֻם Χ”' וְשָׁבוּ מ֡א֢ר֢Χ₯ אוֹי֡ב, וְי֡שׁ ΧͺΦ΄ΦΌΧ§Φ°Χ•ΦΈΧ” ΧœΦ°ΧΦ·Χ—Φ²Χ¨Φ΄Χ™Χͺ֡ךְ נְאֻם Χ”' וְשָׁבוּ בָנִים ΧœΦ΄Χ’Φ°Χ‘Χ•ΦΌΧœΦΈΧ". Χ•ΦΌΧ‘Φ΄Χ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺ Χͺְּ׀ִלָּΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ שׁ֢ל Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ΅ΦΌΧ Χ•ΦΌ Χͺּוֹשִׁיג֡נוּ Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ’Φ°ΧΦΈΧœΦ΅Χ Χ•ΦΌ Χ•Φ°Χͺָבִיא ΧœΦΈΧ Χ•ΦΌ א֢Χͺ ΧžΦ°Χ©Φ΄ΧΧ™Χ—Φ· Χ¦Φ΄Χ“Φ°Χ§Φ΅Χ Χ•ΦΌ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ§ΦΈΧ¨Χ•ΦΉΧ‘ מַמָּשׁ, Χ•ΦΌΧ‘Φ°Χ Φ΅Χ” Χ‘Φ΅ΦΌΧ™Χͺ Χ”Φ·ΧžΦ΄ΦΌΧ§Φ°Χ“ΦΈΦΌΧ©Χ, Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ©Φ°ΧΧ›ΦΉΦΌΧŸ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧͺΧ•ΦΉΧšΦ° Χ™Φ°Χ¨Χ•ΦΌΧ©ΦΈΧΧœΦ·Χ™Φ΄Χ Χ’Φ΄Χ™Χ¨Φ°ΧšΦΈ כַּאֲשׁ֢ר Χ“Φ΄ΦΌΧ‘Φ·ΦΌΧ¨Φ°ΧͺΦΈΦΌ, Χ•ΦΌΧ‘Φ°Χ Φ΅Χ” אוֹΧͺΦΈΧ”ΦΌ Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ Φ°Χ™Φ·ΧŸ Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧœΦΈΧ Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧžΦ°Χ”Φ΅Χ¨ΦΈΧ” Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ™ΦΈΧžΦ΅Χ™Χ Χ•ΦΌ Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺ Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ΅ΦΌΧ Χ•ΦΌ. Χ•Φ°Χ™Φ΄Χ”Φ°Χ™Χ•ΦΌΧ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ מִΧͺΦ°Χ’ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧœΦ°ΧœΦ΄Χ™Χ גַל גַם Χ§ΦΈΧ“Φ°Χ©ΦΆΧΧšΦΈ. Χ•Φ°Χͺִשְׁמַג א֢Χͺ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧœΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧͺΦ·Χ™ וְא֢Χͺ Χ–Φ·Χ’Φ²Χ§Φ·Χͺ ΧœΦ΄Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ אֲשׁ֢ר אֲנִי קוֹר֡אΧͺ ΧΦ΅ΧœΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ, א֡ל רָם וְנִשָּׂא. אָנָּא מִמְּךָ, רְא֡ה ΧžΦ·Χ” שּׁ֢גוֹב֡ר Χ’ΦΈΧœΦ·Χ™ Χ•Φ°Χͺוֹשִׁיג֡נִי (Χͺְּ׀ָר֡שׁ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄Χ™Χ”ΦΈ Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧœ ΧœΦ°Χ‘ΦΈΧ‘ΦΈΧ”ΦΌ וְא֢Χͺ בַּקָּשׁוֹΧͺΦΆΧ™Χ”ΦΈ). אָנָּא מִמְּךָ, ΧžΦ·ΧœΦ°Χ›Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ Χ•Φ΅ΧΧœΦΉΧ”Φ·Χ™, Χ§Φ·Χ‘Φ΅ΦΌΧœ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧœΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧͺΦ·Χ™ ΧœΦ°Χ˜Χ•ΦΉΧ‘ΦΈΧ” Χ•Φ°ΧœΦ΄Χ‘Φ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ›ΦΈΧ”, Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ°Χ©Φ·Χ‚ΧžΦ°ΦΌΧ—Φ΅Χ Φ΄Χ™ וְא֢Χͺ Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧœ גַמְּךָ Χ™Φ΄Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χœ, Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦΈΧ’Φ΅ΧŸ Χ’ΦΈΧœΦ΅Χ™Χ Χ•ΦΌ Χ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺ הָאָבוֹΧͺ הַקְּדוֹשִׁים אַבְרָהָם Χ™Φ΄Χ¦Φ°Χ—ΦΈΧ§ Χ•Φ°Χ™Φ·Χ’Φ²Χ§ΦΉΧ‘, Χ•ΦΌΧ–Φ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺ Χ”ΦΈΧΦ΄ΧžΦΈΦΌΧ”Χ•ΦΉΧͺ הַקְּדוֹשׁוֹΧͺ Χ©ΦΈΧ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧ” Χ¨Φ΄Χ‘Φ°Χ§ΦΈΧ” Χ¨ΦΈΧ—Φ΅Χœ Χ•Φ°ΧœΦ΅ΧΦΈΧ”, Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ–Φ°Χ›ΦΉΦΌΧ¨ אוֹΧͺΦ΄Χ™ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ–Φ΄Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Χ•ΦΉΧŸ Χ˜Χ•ΦΉΧ‘ ΧœΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ, וְא֢זְכּ֢ה ΧœΦ΄Χ”Φ°Χ™Χ•ΦΉΧͺ אִשָּׁה כְּשׁ֡רָה Χ•ΦΌΧ¦Φ°Χ Χ•ΦΌΧ’ΦΈΧ”, Χ•ΦΌΧœΦ°Χ”Φ·ΧœΦ΅ΦΌΧœ Χ•ΦΌΧœΦ°Χ‘ΦΈΧ¨Φ΅ΧšΦ° א֢Χͺ שִׁמְךָ ΧžΦ·ΧœΦ°Χ›Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ Χ•Φ΅ΧΧœΦΉΧ”Φ·Χ™, Χ”Φ·Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ¨Χ•ΦΌΧšΦ° Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ‘Φ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ›Χ•ΦΉΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ’ΦΈΦΌΧ“Χ•ΦΉΧœ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ’Φ°Χ“Φ»ΧœΦΈΦΌΧ”, Χ”Φ·Χ“ΦΈΦΌΧ’Χ•ΦΌΧœ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ“Φ΄Χ’ΦΌΧ•ΦΌΧœ, Χ”ΦΆΧ”ΦΈΧ“Χ•ΦΌΧ¨ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ”Φ΄Χ“ΦΌΧ•ΦΌΧ¨, Χ”Φ·Χ•ΦΈΦΌΧͺΦ΄Χ™Χ§ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ•ΦΈΧͺΦ΄Χ™Χ§Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ–ΦΈΦΌΧšΦ° Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ–Φ·Χ›ΦΌΧ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”ΦΆΧ—ΦΈΧ‘Φ΄Χ™Χ“ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ—Φ²Χ‘Φ΄Χ™Χ“Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ˜ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧ‘ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ˜Χ•ΦΉΧ‘Χ•ΦΉΧͺ, וְהַיָּשָׁר Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ יַשְׁרָנוּΧͺ, Χ”Φ·ΧžΦ°Χ›Φ»Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ“ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ›ΦΈΧ‘Χ•ΦΉΧ“, Χ”Φ·ΧœΦΈΦΌΧžΧ•ΦΌΧ“ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ ΧœΦ΄ΧžΦΌΧ•ΦΌΧ“, Χ”Φ·ΧžΦΆΦΌΧœΦΆΧšΦ° Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ ΧžΦ·ΧœΦ°Χ›Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, הַנּוֹרָא Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ נוֹרָאוֹΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ‘Φ·ΦΌΧ‘Φ°ΧœΦΈΧŸ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ‘Φ·Χ‘Φ°ΧœΦΈΧ Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”ΦΆΧ’ΦΈΧ ΦΈΧ• Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ’Φ²Χ ΦΈΧ•ΦΈΧ”, Χ”Φ·Χ€ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧ“ΦΆΧ” Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ€Φ°Χ“Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ¦Φ·ΦΌΧ“Φ΄ΦΌΧ™Χ§ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ¦Φ°Χ“ΦΈΧ§Χ•ΦΉΧͺ, הַקָּדוֹשׁ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ קְדֻשּׁוֹΧͺ, הָרַחוּם Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΈΧ Χ•ΦΌΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χ©Φ·ΦΌΧ‚Χ¨ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧ¨Χ•ΦΉΧͺ, Χ”Φ·Χͺָּם Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΈΧœ ΧžΦ΄Χ™Χ Φ΅Χ™ ΧͺΦ°ΧžΦ΄Χ™ΧžΧ•ΦΌΧͺ. Χ”Χ•ΦΉΧœΦ΅ΧšΦ° וָאוֹר Χ’Φ·Χ“ ΧΦ΅Χ™ΧŸ Χ—Φ΅Χ§ΦΆΧ¨, Χ•ΦΌΧ‘Φ΄Χ™Χ ΦΈΧ” ΧœΧ•ΦΉ Χ’Φ·Χ“ ΧΦ΅Χ™ΧŸ ΧͺΦ·ΦΌΧ›Φ°ΧœΦ΄Χ™Χͺ, Χ•Φ°ΧΦ΅Χ™ΧŸ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ›ΦΉΧ—Φ· Χ”ΦΈΧ’Φ΄Χ™ΦΌΧ•ΦΌΧŸ Χ•Φ°Χ”Φ·Χ©Φ΅ΦΌΧ‚Χ›ΦΆΧœ ΧœΦΈΧ‘Χ•ΦΉΧ Χ’Φ·Χ“ ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ‘Χ•ΦΌΧ ΦΈΧͺ֢ךָ. אָנָּא מִמְּךָ Χ’Φ²Χ–ΦΉΧ¨ ΧœΦ΄Χ™, Χ•Φ·Χ’Φ²Χ©Φ΅Χ‚Χ” Χ‘Φ°Χ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ שׁ֢לֹּא Χ™Φ΄Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧ©Φ°ΧΧœΧ•ΦΌ Χ‘Φ΄Χ™ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ Φ΅Χ™ אָדָם, Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦ°Χͺַקּ֡ן Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ Χ›ΦΈΦΌΧœ Χ“ΦΈΦΌΧ‘ΦΈΧ¨ שׁ֢א֡ינוֹ כַּשּׁוּרָה שׁ֢נַּגֲשָׂה Χ•Φ°Χ Φ΄Χͺְקַלְקַל גַל Χ™ΦΈΧ“Φ΄Χ™ אוֹ שׁ֢נִּגְרַם Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ‘Φ΄Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧͺΦ΄Χ™, Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄ΧžΦ°Χ—ΦΉΧœ Χ•Φ°ΧͺΦ΄Χ‘Φ°ΧœΦ·Χ— Χ•ΦΌΧͺΦ°Χ›Φ·Χ€Φ΅ΦΌΧ¨ ΧœΦ΄Χ™ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧ¨Φ·Χ—Φ²ΧžΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ, וְא֢זְכּ֢ה ΧœΦ΄Χ“Φ°Χ‘ΦΉΦΌΧ§ Χ‘Φ°ΦΌΧšΦΈ Χ•Φ°ΧœΦ·Χ’Φ²Χ©Χ‚Χ•ΦΉΧͺ Χ¨Φ°Χ¦Χ•ΦΉΧ ΦΆΧšΦΈ, ΧΦ±ΧœΦΉΧ”Φ΅Χ™ Χ™Φ΄Χ©Φ°Χ‚Χ¨ΦΈΧΦ΅Χœ, ΧžΦ°Χ™Φ·Χ—ΦΆΧœΦΆΧͺ Χ•ΦΌΧžΦ°Χ¦Φ·Χ€ΦΈΦΌΧ” ΧœΦ΄Χ™Χ©ΧΧ•ΦΌΧ’ΦΈΧͺְךָ, אָנָּא אַל Χͺְּשִׁיב֡נִי ר֡יקָם. Χ™Φ΄Χ”Φ°Χ™Χ•ΦΌ ΧœΦ°Χ¨ΦΈΧ¦Χ•ΦΉΧŸ ΧΦ΄ΧžΦ°Χ¨Φ΅Χ™ Χ€Φ΄Χ™ Χ•Φ°Χ”ΦΆΧ’Φ°Χ™Χ•ΦΉΧŸ ΧœΦ΄Χ‘Φ΄ΦΌΧ™ ΧœΦ°Χ€ΦΈΧ ΦΆΧ™ΧšΦΈ, Χ”' Χ¦Χ•ΦΌΧ¨Φ΄Χ™

Χ•Φ°Χ’Χ•ΦΉΧΦ²ΧœΦ΄Χ™, אָמ֡ן Χ ΦΆΧ¦Φ·Χ— Χ‘ΦΆΧœΦΈΧ” Χ•ΦΈΧ’ΦΆΧ“

Χ”Φ·ΧͺΦ°ΦΌΧ€Φ΄ΧœΦΈΦΌΧ” ΧžΦ°Χ™Φ»Χ‘ΦΆΦΌΧ“ΦΆΧͺ גַל ΧžΦ·ΧΦ·ΧžΦ°Χ¨Φ΅Χ™ Χ—Φ²Χ–Φ·"ל Χ‘Φ·ΦΌΧ’Φ°ΦΌΧžΦΈΧ¨ΦΈΧ, ΧžΦ΄Χ“Φ°Χ¨Φ·Χ©Χ Χ¨Φ·Χ‘ΦΈΦΌΧ” Χ€Φ°ΦΌΧͺΦ΄Χ™Χ—Φ·Χͺ א֡יכָה, Χ‘Φ΅Χ€ΦΆΧ¨ Χ™Φ΄Χ¨Φ°ΧžΦ°Χ™ΦΈΧ” לא, Χ™Χ“ - Χ˜Χ•, Χ‘Φ΅Χ€ΦΆΧ¨ שַׁגֲר֡י Χ¦Φ΄Χ™ΦΌΧ•ΦΉΧŸ - שַׁגַר Χ’' ΧœΦ°Χ™Χ•ΦΉΧ Χ¨Φ°Χ‘Φ΄Χ™Χ’Φ΄Χ™).



Wear Your Crown Proud, Ladies

Thought I would share a personal reflection on my corona experience…. I am, thank Gd, getting stronger by the day - but thought this forum might appreciate what came out while I was briefly hospitalized. May we wear our crowns proud! - Leiba Smith, Shiviti chat


Breathing in

Forced oxygen

In covid unit Keter 1

Keter 1, Crown 1

Corona is, after all, a crown

And I wear mine, not jewel-encrusted with rubies and pearls

But crafted of curvaceous cannulae,

Clear, plastic tubes I can insert at will

With long continuations that loop

Behind my ears, and join, secured, to complete the crown

Fastened beneath my chin.

I breathe through my crown,

And I feel regal, monarchic,

As I rule my shortness of breath

Command the rise and fall of my lungs

To raise the O2 stats that had sunk too low.

Of all the crowns my current life might bring

This is not the crown I had sought to wear,

But I wear it proud, ladies.

I wear it proud

Because I know, over time, true malchut is mine

How can it not be?


To anyone blessed with the Keter of Corona,

Wear your crown proud, ladies.

Find your malchut. Breathe it in deeply.

Breathe it in clear.

Other crowns will surely come your way,

But for the moment, this is the one you must bear.

So wear your crown proud.



 
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